the real lacc

UCLA taser

2011-10-27T04:56:00.000-07:00

so Fink wanted me to come to UCLA to explain the LACC
i should demand a free tasering in exchange for explaining the Civil Rights Act and Free Speech Threat at LACC
land of sexism and rape jokes, but to my knowledge, no free tasering
with
the governor's fee waiver

#occupywallstreet #occupyla #occupyDC

2011-09-28T02:46:00.000-07:00

hey y'all all major american cities are UNDER CONSTRUCTION due to major city occupations planned by youth in america
6 october
#occupy together

coinciding with a massive march to DC

be aware police are issuing pre-emptive arrest strategies
and
in new york city they are beating protesters

spamming for equality

2011-09-20T13:11:00.000-07:00

From: mary eng
To: jamillah moore ; LACCD counsel legal ; LACC collegian ; israel fonseci ; "laccasoes@lacitycollege.edu" ; ombudsman ; keith fink ; "eckforwv@lacitycollege.edu" ; tom duffy ; "lanzerkc@lacitycollege.edu" ; lewis r ; LACC collegian arts ; Letia R. Royal burnet ; lawrence bradford ; fadwa el guindi ; lacc anthropology project ; LACC anthro South Africa ; PSU general counsel ; boghossian PSU ; psu counsel david c reese
Sent: Tuesday, September 20, 2011 1:04 PM
Subject: sexism at LACC

DEAR JAMILLAH MOORE, president of Los Angeles City College

everything is messed up about your letter to me

i made numerous complaints about numerous sexist LACC professors

including Lanzer's use of the word SLUT or LACC campus RAPE theory that it was the victim's fault

and Lewis's obsession with "prostitutes" and sex scandals

but the most critical issue involved the grade retaliation

for complaining about

BRIAN BARTELT's screaming "TITS AND ASS"

along with numerous other trashy vulgar comments about "bitching" "shitty" "assholes"

he was discriminatory on a lot of levels.

to women, to vegetarians, and to latinos

he promoted animal torture including the unaesthenetized disembowlment of animals or burning of live chickens.

when he was seething mad the last day of class because of my complaints regarding his sexism and anger problems he was really mean to a young latin boy who profiled the anthropology of Punk culture in Koreatown becuase the student explained the alcoholic issues in the punk scene.

in stark contrast he was supportive of the marijuana project.

so in your letter to me

you confuse this grade retaliation with Tom Duffy in the paralegal department.

Tom Duffy made cracks about women GETTING FAT EATING BON-BONS in the context of a marriage to a rich man.

i considered this sexist also---but it was not as severe as being shouted at and cursed at by BARTELT>

so please check your documentation or read my blog to clear up your confusion.

http://thereallacc.blogspot.com/

how can you issue a judgement when you will not avail yourself of the FACTS.

when we speak 26 monday at 3:30 hopefully we can clear this up.

rhonda put me in for an appointment on that day.

i want to know what you are doing to get the facts straight and to protect the students of LACC from a hostile learning atmosphere.

eckford threatened to kick me out of anthropology for blogging and told keith fink to "jump in a stream" and that he would "hang up on your dumb ass" after forcing me into a mandatory meeting alone with him and bartelt in which eckford said the words "vagina" "breast"

i found this extremely uncomfortable and harassing and vulgar and unprofessional.

there is a recording on my blog of this sexual verbal abuse on the blog

please realize wikileaks inspired sites like UNILEAKS will begin to uncover the corruption inside the federal school systems as well

and more students will find the power to expose the abusiveness of school administration as you continue to reward and protect ABUSERS

if anyone is interested in sexism at my current school PSU

please see

http://therealpsu.blogspot.com/

dear chancellor and board of trustees

2011-08-27T09:00:00.000-07:00

on behalf of the young women of LACCD
i urge you to reconsider
that i have received a "C" in punishment for reporting Bartelt's rude, sexist, vulgar language in the classroom.
the position of ms. passman and ms. moore is to politely brush it under the rug. the terms i heard at LACC included "tits and ass" "bitchin" "asshole" "shitty" from Bartelt and "whore" "slut" "prostitute" and more in the paralegal department and a Rape joke about the student raped at LACC by lanzer.
bartelt disparaged anorexics, bulimics, vegetarians, and christians.
eckford threatened to kick me out of the class for blogging and said "vagina" to me.
this is my formal request for an appeal.

the public outing of internal civil rights act violations and sexual harassment of a hostile nature contributing to a hostile atmosphere such that women are denied EQUAL ACCESS to an education must be assessed.
please make LACC fair.
please send me copies of my complaints on
bartelt
eckford
vargas
duffy
lewis

i suffer great measures of sadness and anxiety that this VERBAL HUMILIATION is used against women unfairly
in the classroom
i am sad

please mail all copies of your documentation to of my discrimination complaints to
XXXX

please include internal memos
hiring/firing policies and revision of
training modules that have come about as
LACCD has faced exposure
please also let me know how
LACCD will remunerate or reward me for my work as a watchdog and whistleblower.
regardless of the outcome of your appeal
i will not be satisfied until all women are treated fairly in the classroom.
the systemic sexist Abuse Passman and Moore protect
inhibit the future of equality
other issues of advocacy are impacted by the educational environment.
serious social change in the areas of

domestic violence
rape
pay inequality
reproductive care inequality
verbal abuse
spouse battery
homicide
sex work
lack of female representation in government

are
hindered by your POOR methods of Educating and controlling your sexist professors. i strongly urge you to exercise Leadership for the Future of women in LACC and Beyond.
that you continue to rake in federal dollars while protecting verbal abuse
by White Male Professors
against your Latina and Asian and Middle Eastern
women of LACC can only appear to me to be
both extremely sexist
and RACIST

courage is contagious.

that your company cannot avoid the serious Public Relations Fiasco on the Blogosphere by exerting sound Leadership is to me an avoidable error.
please consider a Best Practices Approach to Training Your Professors.
if it is not a Best Practice to shout "Tits and Ass" at a female student and then retaliate against and punish her with a "C" for reporting it Perhaps you can hold a conference of Teachers to keep them in check.
Good Wishes for Your Work for Equality and Human Rights.
I look forward to th outcome of this appeal.
I will submit to interview and provide documents and BLOG>

see
http://thereallacc.blogspot.com/

as well as

http://culturalanthropologynotesbartelt.blogspot.com/

and

http://digitalanthropologies.blogspot.com/
for Evidence

for the Women of Los Angeles
and LACC
and all oppressed minorities, disabled, Transgendered, GAY, etc

The LACC Equality Coalition

mary eng

maryeng1@yahoo.com

bartelt's tits and ass class

2011-08-04T22:08:00.000-07:00

letter to former DOJ lawyer and now EQUALITY ombudsman cristy passman
passmacw@lacitycollege.edu

and LACC President jamillah moore
moorejk@lacitycollege.edu

i want to thank you for investigating bartelt's tits and ass and shitty and bulimic and anorexic and christian and vegan slurs and whiteman identity issues.

while i am sorry you consider this acceptable under the civil rights act, nonetheless as a woman i am sure this has been both embarrassing and unpleasant, as was taking his class.

i do hope you have more respectful encounters.

once again if you would like to hear eckford and bartelt coercing me out of my free speech to review bartelt's cursing problem on the blogosphere you can listen here:

http://soundcloud.com/maryeng1/bartelt-and-eckford-defend-sexist-language-at-lacc-5-25-10

many students wrote me with similar sadness.

i am very sorry it seems you do not care for the psychological well being of students who are unaccustomed to verbal abuse.

in an age of school shootings, all attempts to diffuse professor anger should be a part of safety protocol if not basic human dignity or civil rights.

i am so sorry you do not have more respect for me as a human.

to condone this behavior reflects poorly upon your post and is an insult to the women of LACC who are statistically sure to be victims of domestic violence, rape, and verbal abuse elsewhere.

i would love to point you to progressive measures for women's safety in international milieus.

the chronic underpay and underrepresentation of women in the USA is a part of the cultural milieu which would condone the verbal abuse of the women at LACC.

did you approve the hate speech against Japanese people at UCLA?

at which point your approval for hateful verbal conduct provokes an atmosphere of violence you might experience remorse.

i hope bartelt has experienced personal growth.

but sadly i have heard that his hatefulness to women continues at LACC.

i wish you cared.

i hope your own children have attained a higher degree of etiquette and future hiring decisions will reflect a desire to reduce the nuisance of such paper work and bureaucracy as your ineffective year long investigation has yielded.

did you come to a decision about Lanzer's jokes about the LACC rape victim?

i hope it has been a learning experience for everyone.

i am very sorry i rubbed your nose in this, as it would have been easier for all of us if i had just brushed it under the rug with all the other sexist stuff from other white male professors at LACC.

thanks for everything.

if you get a chance

check out the jamie leigh foundation.

she was gang raped and gagged by Halliburton and KBR federal contractors.

US senators voted to keep war contractor rape victims gagged.

yes,

the same federal government that pays your salary.

http://www.jamiesfoundation.org/

in peace
eng, mary

embassy of piracy los angeles city college 2009

2011-07-30T16:32:00.000-07:00

embassy of piracy embarrasses the year 2009

i got so obsessed about intellectual property that year, re the pirate bay trial.

2009.

now i am starting to feel the bigger big picture.

for FBI operation onslaught against Mantech FFF III

check here

http://thepiratebay.org/torrent/6571301-

unileaks

2011-07-26T16:17:00.000-07:00

it was very nice to meet unileaks associates at the wikileaks event 2 july.

i support all methods to expose industrialized and federalized corruption, even at the university level, where at times the toil feels petty.

the larger issues of torture in guantanamo and the suppression of wikileaks i find more largely a function of systemic generational gaps as they affect moral compass and dominance heirarchies.

as the blogosphere and the internet seem to be quite confusing for the Torture Generation, who rely on racist prisons, tortureINC, for their paychecks, it seems very unreasonable that they might respect your civil rights, especially within the borders of a country which supports torture and refuses to ratify the convention on the elimination of all forms of discrimination against women.

but it's a good fight, nevertheless.

i hope that all professors and war bureucrats might begin to conduct themselves in a way that stands the sunlight of transparency.

if they have conduct which embarrasses them on the blogosphere, they might take heed, before the university system becomes geriatric care.

the larger biological issue at place within such dominance heirarchies, are our elders need to be feared if not respected.

when their conduct is so unfair and discriminatory that it makes them despicable, it might be well to move towards more humble, egalitarian, and socratic methods.

cheers to unileaks and all new non-violent methods which might unseat corruption and cruelty.

macho madness with MikeDiva

2011-05-27T14:14:00.001-07:00

for lovers of literature and eloquence please go here:
marcel proust: swann's way

for future PTSD and masochists:
go to LACC
cutters . . .
re: sleazy sexist profs obsessed with slut and prostitutes at LACC.
its not hustler mag, but close enough.
its like a funny farm pretending to be a school.
racism too. i finally got why my latina friend was like, i wouldn't go to that ghetto school, i'm afraid of being raped. and indeed, the rape on campus was brushed aside by the sheriffs.
and lanzer cracked jokes about how it was the rape victims fault.
poor primate!!!!
we will all die?

why be immortalized as a pottymouth on the blogosphere when you could be the five star Yelp review of teachers, with shiny red apples on your desk and devotees heady on the psychedelic music of justice?
misogyny???
like, under the che guevera flag.
even the national lawyers guild says we must resist
radical black panthers misogyny.
they meet on third and crescent heights first tuesdays at 7pm, if you want some intelligent people in the same room.
otherwise, take anthro.
ONLY IF YOU ARE A WHITE MALE.
otherwise you might get a "C" for your lack of maleness, or super-whiteness.
http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.com/2008/12/03/117-political-prisoners/
this video is in honor of brian bartelt's urinal vocabulary lessons
and
asshole theory
"show your tits" mardi gras refrain
and
"tits and ass" shoutout in cultural anthropology for which he graded me "C"
for
C???
after i asked he never never curse or say unkind things towards bulimics and anorexics or vegans or women, ever again.
in defiance of civil rights act the entire state of california is too illiterate to read now
thanks to Idiocracy.
his anger is wicked cool. way to be fierce dude. but i just wish he'd stop verbally his students with his prison vocabulary and turn his enemy against our real enemy
SATAN.
i mean karl rove and WAR INC.

now i never say white
it is the ultra unsayable
unscientific and racist.
lame.
however the cultural cliches summed up in "stuff white people like"
cover many of the bases
that anthropology teaches, at LACC.
http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.com/2008/03/04/81-graduate-school/

when brian bartelt would speak of him self as "white" i felt uncomfortable.
i thought we were in a post race post gender
UTOPIA
where everyone is equal and respected.
not heterosexist elitist white male shoutathon.
i think anthro as a subject is tricky in a collateral murder
racist war era.
i rather read the gitmo files about
waterboarding in guantanamo.
http://wikileaks.ch/gitmo/

psychological abuse runs generations thick, and the racism left over in the third generation and the fourth generation spills through to the new BP oil era "tits and ass" experts
who boldly proclaim their hate
or freedom to hate speech
asians
or bulimics
or whoever.
yes, i am calling you a nazi. or no, how about sadist. sadistic hatred of women embodied in militant verbal abuse in the classrom.
and indeed when i said terrorize, i was referring to the traumatizing effects of verbal abuse.
tthe fear of ever returning to such a place of abuse, the tears.
WHY SCREAM AT YOUR STUDENTS UNTIL THEY CRY ECKFORD, BARTELT? why.
look it up.
from ehow

Verbal abuse is more than spoken negative words. Verbal abuse can be communicated with or without words in sarcasm, body gestures, tone, ignoring, rolling the eyes, laughing and teasing. The effects of verbal abuse can be experienced physically, behaviorally and emotionally. Without identifying verbal abuse, addressing it and seeking treatment, victims may experience lifelong scars and symptoms. Two common traits of verbal abusers is the brainwashing of their victims and the need to control them. Victims are brainwashed to believe everything the abuser tells them, and the abuser becomes controlling to the point of secluding the victim from friends and family.

Verbal abuse has unlimited, damaging effects that may be experienced throughout life without treatment. Symptoms of behavioral effects of verbal abuse include the following and may be experienced by all ages: difficulty sleeping, profound and inappropriate sucking, biting, rocking, bed-wetting, exaggerated immature behavior, low self-esteem, excessive moodiness, aggressiveness, overacting, shyness or being withdrawn, sadness and depression, lack of trust in oneself and others, lying, stealing, and suicide.

The age that verbal abuse began will often determine the extent of the physical effects suffered by the victim. Some of the first physical symptoms experienced in young children who are verbally abused may be a slower physical development and speech problems. As verbally abused children grow older, they may develop facial tics and go through periods of hurting themselves. Again, the age will determine the type of personal harm inflicted. Small children often bite themselves; older children may use pencils or pens to inflict harm, and if items that could be used to cut or burn themselves are readily available, older children may use these as well. Pre-teens through adults can develop eating disorders, abuse drugs and alcohol and even commit suicide.

The emotional effects of verbal abuse are the deep-seated feelings of low self-worth and insignificance. Victims can feel undeserving, fearful and unlovable. They also might lack of confidence and faith. The emotional effects can be as painful and difficult to overcome as any of the physical or behavioral effects.

i am really sorry to be picking on eckford and bartelt, as i have given up ALL hope.
and at a certain point bickering with idiots shows weakness.
peace out and never say an unkind word.
and watch your back LACC
columbine is a breath away, and so long as bully teachers with big egos push kids around, suicides and rampages and toilet seat grafitti and blogs will be our recourse to justice.
so count your self lucky if you make out of every day alive, so long as kamikazi lesbians
display their own
MACHO MADNESS
alphabet soup
i mean, women go la femme nikita too. i wouldn't mess with women these days. talking trash at us like a wanna-be larry flint.

cutting down women proves less than nothing . . .
but cuss-a-thon pissing contests

macho madness, i couldn't have said it better
thank the lovely talented MikeDiva sums up

the MACHO madness
at LACC

not nacho,
macho

as the freedom to hate speech Asians roars over at UCLA
let Macho Madness MikeDiva rock your asian button.
like anonymous and sony.

at which point LACC trying to control the internet
is like karl rove trying to gag wikileaks
and
bradley manning

or shoq trying to hunt down lockean

update: gay will be illegal in tennessee soon
so

march
to protest the indefinite detention and humiliation of bradley manning, persecuted for exposing war crimes, and for being gay
in hollywood
http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.com/2008/03/14/88-having-gay-friends/

http://www.bradleymanning.org/

Free Bradley Manning contingent at West Hollywood Pride Parade!

West Hollywood, CA
June 12, 2011. 11am.

others:

Signholding and photos: "I am Bradley Manning!"

Honolulu, HI
June 3, 2011. 6:30pm

"Bradley Manning: Way OUT for Justice!" contingent in the Gay Pride Parade

Waikiki, HI
June 4, 2011. 8:30am

Rally at Fort Leavenworth for Bradley Manning!

Leavenworth, KS
June 4, 2011. 11:30am

NYC Solidarity rally for Bradley!

New York, NY
June 4, 2011. 12:30pm

Free Bradley Manning contingent at West Hollywood Pride Parade!

West Hollywood, CA
June 12, 2011. 11am.

House concert for Bradley!

Santa Rosa, CA
June 12, 2011. 2:30pm

March for Bradley Manning at SF Pride!

San Francisco, CA
June 26, 2011. 9:45am

Weekly Friday vigils to free Bradley Manning!

West Hollywood, CA
August 1, 2011. 7pm

i want to go back to school

2011-05-26T19:14:00.000-07:00

but then a good friend reminds me of being talked to like an idiot by bartelt, lanzer, duffy, vargas, passman, eckford.

LACC. better than guantanamo. for sure. for sure.
http://wikileaks.ch/gitmo/

waterboarding, now available in styrofoam.

i am learning so much more writing and reading wikileaks.

the legendary magic sexism of bartelt

2011-05-20T14:59:00.000-07:00

okay.
i have spies. not really. but the grapevine.

it makes its way around.

my un-named source has a friendwho takes class with the professor described as the one who takes acid with the kids.
now i don't know if this is true, but how timothy leary.
and i heard he went out to do shrooms with the beautiful portugese student he was sleeping with.

i totally have nothing against sleeping with young people. but when tax money is involved, it is obvious that she might be exploiting him as a servant of the state.

and so the latest on sexist pottymouth genius bartelt is that there is a group of girls who sit in the back of the classroom and and are considering whether or not to make a complaint on his sexism/epithets/nastiness.

the girls feel intimidated.

the phrase pearls before swine . . . comes to mind.

he is going a little crazy she says. (my sources come from conservativeland, and are unknowing of the occult . . .)
he spoke of

animals painted in caves . . .
what do you find in common with these animals
predators
owl in the tree
i know to run because witches turn into owls.

his friend thinks he's brilliant.
of course he is.
and that is why it hurts to see such brilliance turning into buckets of deep-fried sleeze.

renounce your white skin privilege say the black panthers
and then
renounce your male privilege so too . . .

as for only letting the men talk in class, and shooting the women down every time they begin to speak . . .

lacc warning system

2011-05-02T23:00:00.000-07:00

see you in class!

warning to any and all professors. i dont want to listen to your sexist BS.

so be ready to star on the internet as a sexist idiot if you so much as verbally harass the class in my presence!

but other than that so homesick for LA! and i love the LACC pricetag.

protecting students from hatred and hate crime

2011-04-19T16:47:00.000-07:00

http://www.lacba.org/Files/LAL/Vol26No6/1439.pdf

"Under the hostile environment theory used by the OCR, if repeated
incidents of harassment or a single severe incident of harassment
occurs at a school, the school administration must take action—not
only to protect the victim but also to protect the school and staff
from liability."

get on the bus! make sure fam sues after you suicide!

2011-04-19T16:29:00.000-07:00

suicide sparks lawsuit. sue the bullys! sue they who protect the bullys!

now if any of your teachers are so verbally abusive as to incite your suicide, prior to completing the act, include a link to this court case to your parents and their lawyer, so your family can sue LACC or whatever creepy school protects your verbal harrassment and bullying.

1. Original Complaint

RIP notre dame rape victim/suicide
=(

smash racism, smash sexism, smash homophobia

2011-04-05T04:15:00.000-07:00

let me preface this with the understanding that i have worked for the legal department of the hollywood gay and lesbian center

which fields calls regarding hate crime, hate speech, partner abuse, landlord discrimination, on the job harassment.

this is beyond my level of comprehension.

if it were a set up with a fake email, designed to spur hatred, i might easily disregard it.

it reads:

LACC Another Upset Student

From:	"mxxxxx20@aol.com" Add to Contacts
To:	maryeng1@yahoo.com

Hello Mary Eng, I'm also a student of Mr. Bartelt. I have a question for you.. Do you think Mr. Bartelt may be gay? Is that the reason for the Hate towards women?

the most important thing to realize

besides the privacy breach this student risks in writing me and the implication that repressed bisexuality or homosexuality can result in aggression----

is that hatred of anyone on gender or orientation lines is absolutely unacceptable
from our collateral murder protorture bradley manning imprisoning governement.

i tend to think everyone has endocrinology spectrum of many hormones which affect human identity.
americans eat so many cow hormones in their milk, they are actually self modifying through the endocrine uptake of other species.
there is also pollution in the water systems leading to many variations of gender and hermaphroditism.
many many foods have estrogenizing effects and can modify other endocrine function.
they say marijuana is estrogenizing.
sexual disfunction results from animal fats clogging arteries. the more fat a man has on his body, the more estrogenic hormones are produced.
alcohol affects the body towards waist-fat acumulation, as do transfats.
our bodies and minds are complex.

for maximum health and vitality of mind i recommend a near raw vegan diet, with a wide variety of oils for the myelinization of the neural connections. the wide spectrum of oils and proteins available in a raw vegan diet will help the brain function at optimum.

i also recommend a large amount of juice for smog-dwellers in LA. maybe a look at ayruveda will help.

this relates to cursing professors, because their words stay in our minds to sting forever, like all verbal abuse.

we must detoxify our hearts, as victims of hate speech and rape and domestic violence and discriminatory hate speech.

how can we neutralize this powerful suffering???
I DO NOT KNOW
and furthermore
i do not exist, i am transpersonal, we are one----light seeks light----go to the place of maximum light---if you are breaking away from darkness----do not hold yourself away from light . . .

that bartelt still has a job, with which to cause grief to young students, with his vigorous sexism, is a mystery to me.

except the USA has torture written into our highest legal theory
USA hates human rights
http://www.scribd.com/disbartorturelawyers

what is missing from our society is total acceptance for all gender expression.
if humans were not so propagandized into ways of hatred, they would freely float on waves of kindnes and transcendence.

today i had a first meditation session at the brahma coumaris center in stockholm.

i distinctly thought of bartelt, and the harsh words he issued, in stark contrast to the gentleness of our teacher.
she was speaking of the metaphysical power of thoughts and words.
a basic tenant of jainism.
she asked me what spiritualtiy i have
i puzzled over
jewish
sufi
buddhist
and finally answered
JAIN
which teaches nonviolence
in
word
thought
action
http://braingarbagedystopie.blogspot.com/2010/12/buddhism-v-jainism.html

a puzzle of nonviolence is how to make justice and protect the weak.
that is why i fight and protest LACC's abuse of the young people of los angeles.
it is my higher sense of duty.
i seek to protect and inspire the young, who i witnessed being abused.
my conscience won't let me off the hook.

it is with this knowledge that i write, continually, on issues pertaining to human suffering and war.
yesterday i was working on this:
http://humanrightsartproject.blogspot.com/

i myself am gay, so gayness is wonderful to me.
if indeed bartelt was raised in a homophobic environment, as was i, he may have hidden aggression for the multigendered spirit which inhabits all of us.
this is very common.

once in class, he spoke of attraction to a transgendered male to female.
i share this feeling, although i am not sure his persoanl predilictions need be part of the discourse.
but i reject the double standard that makes talking about your heterolover as perfectly okay, but your gay or transgendered love
is subject
to don't ask don't tell,
as the love that dare not speak its name,
how oppressive!!!!!

spiritually, i think many men in america, are disempowered by the war machine atmosphere of industrialized american corporate fascism, such that they seek to re-assert their spiritual power, by verbally humiliating women.
i actually place this as a misguided socialization of a attracting cue.
such that men might think cursing at women proves their heteronormative machismo.

but also having grown up in tennessee, where homophobia is so prevalent, and knowing bartelt studied in one of the carolinas, home of much racism and sexism and homophobia, there might have been some basic enculturation at an important state of his linguistic development.
such that he cannot openly exist in kindness and compassion.

also, it is almost impossible to get on a LA bus, watch the TV, or go to a bar that you don't here some
gutter language.
this was formerly called "talking like a sailor"
or plebian
or common
or trashy
or sleazy
or salacious
prurient
or vulgar.
a friend of mine said how vulgar! regarding a simple clothing choice.
and i realize, that truly elegant men, have no need to be vulgar to prove anything to anyone.

as a mere comment can get you beaten up, outside a bar, it must be understood, that what you say can get you into infinities of trouble.

so if you think you have free speech, you still might choose your words carefully, lest they wind up making you the subject of a research project on sexism in the classroom or a future lawsuit.

a retributive justice system is a poor reflection in the material universe of immaterial karmic systems.

people like me operate outside of normal predicted behavior.
my best jobs have unpaid.
my most exciting journalistic endeavors have been unpaid.
but somehow, my quest for justice has kept me afloat through karmic paychecks i don't even understand.
simple understanding of labor law, landlord law, police brutality law have given me boosts.
i plow this back into my merciless quest for truth and justice.

one of the best things bartelt lectures on is the transpersonal.
i think of brilliant things he helped me towards, almost as frequently as i think of his verbal abusiveness.

if i had a child, no amount of verbal abuse or cruelty would ever be tolerated.

the negative trauma that i must unravel, as i try to ponder how it is possible that someone issue hateful words in a public place financed by tax payer money, is still ongoing.

i truly think anyone who is abused by federal employees should be remunerated in health care and associated expenses for trauma, grief, counseling.

the fact that the leadership of the school protects abusers, so they can try to rake in federal cash, is such an obviously unethical business model.

but at least LACC is not sprayed down with skinmelting white phosphorus like our federal government fallujah civilian massacre.

i sincerely open my heart to bisexuality, transexuality, gay expression, and hetero-love. i think love is the sweetest thing in the world, and the only thing, really.

everything that gets in the way of love is a state of anger and war.
when we can disengage from harsh words, we can come to a place of peace.

when i moved up to oregon for more studies, there was a lot of cursing and nastiness among the vulgar country-folk who run portland state university.
http://therealpsu.blogspot.com/
they didnt seem to realize i was used to more sophisticated kinds of sexism, and have very specific tastes, when it comes to academia.

as i am out of the country now for three months, i realize, i do not want to go back to a place of oppression or hatred or verbal abuse, and all the exploitative, demoralizing advertising and language that pollute the american landscape.

my mind has many more important tasks before it without this level of constant degradation like chinese water torture.

this was a blip on the map.
what reason bartelt has for continuing to make students feel bad, as this email seems to indicate, is beyond me.
but as i have given my email front page publication, as help desk for LACC sexism, i can't begin to comprehend how retrogressive america seems in retrospective.
i hope i never go back.
http://www.scribd.com/doc/46354906/Renounce-Citizenship-USA-war-crimes

maybe bartelt should renounce his american citizenship too, because politically we have a lot in common.
he is a great teacher.
he just needs a grandmother with a bar of peppermint hemp soap to wash out his dirty mouth.
some people just crave attention.
boy do they get it.

i wish he'd put his good mind into positive peace action
satyagraha
and stop proclaiming the necessity of animal torture and meat-eating as well.
if he went vegan, and nonsexist, and meditated more, on the torture of american empire, we'd be happy to be a part of the larger future we are experiencing.
his great mind should not be wasted on hurting women who are already hurt by other aggressors.
he should pull it together and make a beautiful impact on this world, or retreat to meditation
until he can confront the human face
with kindness and truth
and compassion.

and homophobia in america is a big deal, it sparks suicide.
so really we need to smash racism, smash sexism, smash homophobia
now
in this world

so this very curious email to me is getting published and i hope other students are not afraid to write me.
i hope i can help.

check out "community"

2011-03-26T05:09:00.000-07:00

leave it to hollywood to express it far better than words or a blog ever could.

now let it be known i have not watched TV for 23 years.

but somehow here in sweden some friends torrented the show "community" off internet and i was suddenly watching the funniest nonsense of all time, outside of real life LACC.

now, true, the TV show is ultra crude, so do not blame me if it offends you.

but remember, i am the one that doesnt like being cursed at in real life.

the show is so funny bc it captures this impoverished idiocracy vibe.

the anthropology teacher is deluxe rude and crude too.

some of it was filmed at LACC, and at large, it is about the demise of the american economy and the plight of the ongoing education of older students in a fast food educational environment with socially gauche pompous educators and deranged fellow students. sound familiar?????

the recurring chicken jokes affirm the fast food styrofoam vibe. they could go vegan.
it was great, sort of, the wafting smell of melting beefgrease on styrofoam. nothing makes your brain work better than thick coatings of transfats, saturated meatgreese, aspartame, and pesticide residue. and tons of pot. the more marijuana, the more LACC makes sense. the food should at least be as toxic as the tap water, and the grafitti in the bathroom should be as pornographic and expletive laced as possible, bc hey its LA BABY.

get out your razor blades and start writing messges on the toilet seat. yeah.

and thanks for all the actual information, teachers, in addition to the sexist crude language, TMI.

overall, my sense of disgust needed to get pushed to an extreme, at which point i get really radical, move away and enjoy the glories of equality-land sweden, where the men are as sweet as maple syrup, and never curse.

what is it about respectfulness that is soooooo attractive? i will never know how i endured such stupidity at LACC, but it was all infotainment.

nyongo worker cults and CIA forced nudity for bradley manning and fragmentation of power blocs

2011-03-15T02:49:00.000-07:00

hi i just wanted to check in with anyone who might stumble upon this blog.

i want you to know how much i love los angeles despite the pollution and dirty water.

if i am back in LA ever i for sure hope to take more classes at LACC.

the world has changed so much in the last 10 months, hope you noticed. as i watch the demonstrations in wisconsin and the upheavals in libya and egypt and tunisia, it seems hysterical that some LACC professors tried to censor my blog, on threat of kicking me out of their class.

hello its the wikileaks era, dinosaurs!

my more up-to-date blogging occurs at

http://braingarbagedystopie.blogspot.com/

where music and politics mix with an interest in the inner workings of business of war and such. it is about torture, US GVT financed torture. they finance torture of bradley manning, so why should they care if your professors curse at you and make sexual snide sexist jokes, or ask out students, or verbally abuse you? make light of rape?

its a free country right?

and as professors siphon state money off the federal government, the same government that is torturing bradley manning and detainees in guantanamo, you better bet that LACC's disability budget is slashed and that their teachers act like deranged epithet-spewing maniacs.

the age old cliche about choosing your battles couldn't be more apt.

yes, i wish the professors of los angeles city college were more enlightened and more happy and peaceful and less verbally aggressive to women.

i think of LACC as elder care, or a geriatric psych unit, more than an actual school. where bc there isnt any real money in the US economy anymore, we can trick the us GVT into giving us bogus loans from bogus banks, in return for babysitting their delusional brainwash victims (ie professors) in exchange for pell grants and the illusion of not being homeless on the streets of LA, though technically you are going in to debt, for this "opportunity" to improve your mind, in the presence of the cursing great apes.

but there is internet, sunshine, a great library, and yes we have each other. we students that is.

we can teach eachother stuff, and write wikis and protest the budget cuts, and degrade eachother on facebook or at the ASO, where scott clapson-esque tempertantrums can pee all over the token brown woman in student government, because it is always important for one minority to crush the other minority, to prevent the coalition of power from rising against more powerful forces of evil, as in the federal government, cristy passman, LACCD, etc.

lots of love

but overall there are so many other things going on in the world.

and as i have removed myself from the sphere of their epithets and aggression, i am surrounded now by much more civilized people, who are kind and gentle in their words.

that is fortunate for me.

that leaves me more mental energy to concentrate on reading all the wikileaks cables and expose articles about HB Gary, anonymous, primegate, and bribery in swedish politics.

it leaves me more time to read CIA torture and detention memos.

in fact, verbal abuse makes a good start on a path to total "breaking" of a victim.

CIA Nudity Aclu

so when eckford invited me in to have he and bartelt curse at me in a private little gang-up, even though i went with a grain of salt, primarily to allow their foolishness to splay itself in all its ludicrousness----and with some naive hope i could increase their compassion towards other humans---i really perhaps pushed my own soul a little too far.

and then it all coincided with the bp oil spill.

and now one out of two people in gulf area are suffering strange disease like symptoms.

as i watch the wisconsin protest and get a letter from the lawyers guild about the 10th anniversary protest of the war in afganistan, i am reminded of how petty america is.

i m researching the arms industry in sweden which pumps equiptment into the never ending war.
operation bradical, wikileaks, anonymous
the future is brave, bold, digitized, hypercommunicative.

the future doesnt rely on dominance power structures, or authoritarian teaching methods which incorporate verbal humiliation as a part of the protocol.
if professors are still saying sexist or racist things at LACC, rise up, walk out, write a report, take a "C" in retaliation, get an attorney, make a blog, grafitti it, something.
you don't have to OBEY.
just because you are from east LA doesnt mean white man professor can treat you like the oppressed.

i have been meeting with experts in swedish criminal law. some have had an awful time with the family law system here. another told me of the huge miscarriage of justice in the assange case, involving the prime PR bribes and facebook conflict of interest.
so really the blogosphere is a dangerous place.
wikileaks has shown us how mere information can topple regimes.
so don't be afraid to rate your professors, write a blog about how they treat you, or to exercise your free speech in any way.
power is there for your taking.
the blogosphere is power.
information is power.
do not be afraid.
it is our world, and the old modalities of condescending authoritarian epithet-spewing profanity drenched didacticism are super over.
we young people respect each other more than that.
our generation will destroy artificial borders which separate families.
we will expose the corruption of the banks and the wars.
anonymous will out bank of america.
sweden's arms deals for american wars and sweden's propaganda collaboration with US GVT will be out in the open.

unileaks

2011-02-23T16:28:00.001-08:00

wikileaks methodolgy applied to university corruption.

sigh.

http://www.unileaks.org/index.php

get ready future

gender oppression in USA needs a nice strong dose of sonje akesson

2011-02-11T15:41:00.000-08:00

sonje akesson poetry

to summarize: slavery

expand: ideological slavery

as it pertains with verbal abuse in the classroom

when i tell swedish men, most often they are extremely shocked that in america, professors and bosses regularly verbally abuse women with impunity

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sonja_%C3%85kesson

humans communicating: prisons of the mind: men who hate women

2011-02-10T07:47:00.000-08:00

as i was reading the wiki on simone de beauvoir, this picture caused me to flashback to a funny moment in time, when i found myself in a similar setting.

an office, speaking with humans.
i read simone de beauvoir's the second sex when i was eighteen.

i personally feel genderless, free of any such thing. i feel myself to be pure intellect.
i do not want to express sexism or hatred of any kind.
i do not find it to be beneficial to my mind.

at 33 years of age,
i was sitting in LACC sociology chair's wendel eckford's new office in one of the nice new buildings at LACC, listening to grown men curse at me. my blog was printed out and held by a cursing anthropologist.

as a writer, it is a great feeling to know someone is reading your work.

a huge red che guevera flag was on the wall.

eckford was explaining why i would be kicked out of bartelt's anthro class if i continued to blog the language used in the classroom.
eckford repeated all the language.

freedom of speech sometimes includes freedom to be creepy, lame, gross.

i am such a connoisseur of the elegant, eloquent type. they are hard to find. they are all dead perhaps, like my grandfather.

as wendell recited his litany of epithets to me, in the most bizarre moment of cinematic misogyny, he added "vagina" to the already nagging "bitching" "tits and ass" and "show your tits" "asshole" etc. which he vigorously defended.

i am in sweden now.
via a friend
i found out about a swedish poet
sonja akesson, who wrote about marriage as being the slave of a white man.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sonja_Åkesson

i am extremely creeped out by swedish xenophobia, racism, eugenics.
but gosh, they sure do love equality for women.
that's nice.
but things aren't perfect here.

pop american misogyny is exported just like mcdonalds.
women here still get raped and beaten and trafficked and sold.
even occasionally cursed at/about, i've sadly found out.
but i do think i went several weeks without hearing a single curse word.

men who hate women is stieg larsson was writing about.
women here make 82% of what a man makes.
which far exceeds america's dismal pay gap stats: 58% for a latina woman, 70% for white women to the american male 100% dollar.

the cycle of violence can begin in language

2011-01-20T16:04:00.000-08:00

an anonymous person has come forward with complaints of similar poor treatment in philosophy department of PSU.

any philosophy which enforces gender prejudice is not so true to the preposterous aspiration: "love of wisdom."

for PSU and LACC, my sexist schools,

feel fortunate to have escaped the american ozone spacetime warp momentarily, for a vacation in a land where women are far more respected.

consequently, i feel so much like a human, that i really care not to engage my energies with many of the barbaric elements of american culture i seek to avoid, including the subservient women who make modern american sexism possible.

i wish i could inspire you more.

in the future all humans will be respected.

in the meantime, your government supports torture, extrajudicial assassination orders, and yes, sexist professors.

for inspiration, i suggest you turn your eyes to the harassment suits of keith fink against dov charney of american apparel, or the work of civil rights attorney gloria allred, the work of icelandic parlimentarian birgitta jonsdottir, amy goodman's persistent advocacy on democracy now, or the brilliant vandana shiva.

brilliant women are everywhere, so are brilliant men. we should start respecting eachother.

and language is where it starts.

when people use words that inflict pain, to strategically humiliate women, who are financially destroyed by unequal pay, and underrepresentation in government, and humiliated by domestic violence and barbaric media----

violence begets violence.

bless you all, and for all women who seek education and employment despite institutionalized systemic discrimination

for the sacrifice you make to your dignity

and for the purveyors of cruelty and injustice, that you might begin to see your error

incitation to disrespect

your vulgarities can create an atmosphere literally life threatening

and as you destroy our self esteem, secret violence unto ourselves can destroy

words of hatred can incite multitudinous violence

for those who suffer anorexia, bulimia, drug addiction, self-harm

i cannot tell you how kind and respectful the men are in sweden, they have a totally different culture---

its wonderful to be treated like a human

when i describe what happened with sexist professors, they gasp and say, that's not right.

of course not.

justice---let there be light

2010-11-28T18:24:00.001-08:00

for all sexism and racism everywhere
especially islamophobia in europe and america
JUSTICE!!!!!!!!!!

collegian article and the $50,000 price tag quality differential

2010-11-28T18:19:00.000-08:00

i got the rush transcript of layla fernandez'a collegian article on discrimination.
i applaud her heroic attempts to help the LACC community remember that the educational process extends far beyond the course work.
education is a life long endeavor affecting many aspects of human communication and understanding.

the critical issues all systems of power face are:

Internet---free speech accountability documentation hypercommunicative aspects of young people's online behavior

the collapse of authority---in the face of new information systems old information systems must adapt or be doomed to irrelevance

women---in the future we will not be harassed, underpaid, raped, discriminated against, underpaid, beaten, and cursed at. we will not be the butt of your jokes. you will not treat us unfairly in the classroom or anywhere else.

if you lie to hide your verbal abuse, the ethical karma will find you somewhere where you least expect it.

if as bartelt felt, his free speech permitted him to shout woman! tits! tits and ass! bitching! asshole! in the classroom-----

any defender of free speech would also defend my right to blog the transcript of the proceedings.

eckford cursed at harassment attorney keith fink.
keith fink was looking at me, like you have got to be kidding these guys are really out to lunch.

well.

if bartelt wants to call it "slander and libel" (good move though: always deny everything!!!! classic!)

#1
that is a lie, because truth is a defense to libel---he could learn that in lewis' communications law class in the paralegal department.
if it really happened and i reported it---it is not libel or slander.
truth is a defense to libel.
he really said all these things.
numerous witnesses as well as his own audio defense on soundcloud confirm the truth of those epithets being uttered in class.
he admitted and defended their use.

#2
i think it is slanderous to speak of women in such a way, which is why i asked him to be more respectful in the first place.

he could have said, "thanks, good point!"
instead of put up a big fight. oh war like spirits in struggles of wits.
he's lucky he still has a job in this economy.
things are getting more competetive these days.
and if he thinks cursing at women----or eckford thinks cursing at me---looks good on his resume---
well . . .
they might be wrong.

hopefully if all the administrators are illiterate good old boys then it will all be swept under the rug

i just dont see how defending being rude and sexist in the classroom makes him seem cool. i think it would be way cooler to be respectful all the time.
not to mention in compliance with civil rights act of 1964 title IX.

but LACC is too illiterate to read the laws under which they extract federally supported salary----

so at that point, i just feel sorry for everyone involved, women and men alike
because we are all one family and everyone should respect everyone regardless of race or gender

for a better future
and for victims of domestic violence
who have already been so verbally abused that the last thing they need is two grown men professors cornering them to curse at them, just because they are too poor to get to a better school.
this is where i think
bartelt and eckford are really criminal.
they know better
but they give us their worst bc they think they can get away with it at LACC
i bet they would be a lot more respectful to WHITE PEOPLE paying 50,000$$$$$ a year to go to USC.
so
basically racism and sexism are super stupid . . .
and mean and unfair

getting the california comunity college district chancellors in the loop

2010-11-19T12:37:00.000-08:00

passmacw@lacitycollege.edu; rayrd@lacitycollege.edu; lawrence bradford ; jamillah moore ; LACCD counsel legal; LACC collegian ; LACC collegian arts ; ocr ; eckforwv@lacitycollege.edu; Letia R. Royal burnet; legalaffairs@cccco.edu; fjames@cccco.edu

dear cristy passman ombudsman for discrim/harass at LACC

i spoke with your assistant today about my letters the past few months requesting my graded exam and graded islamophobia project, for which anthropology teacher brian bartelt graded me "C" to punish me for questioning the use in the classroom of the vulgarities "tits and ass" and "asshole" and "bitching"and treating women poorly in the classroom.

he shouted at me "woman" as well as saying "we dont want to wig anyone out" when i critiqued his "transvestites teach real women how to be real women" argument.

he also said he has "no sympathy for anorexia and bulimia."

eckford sociology chair tried to kick me out of anthropology for my stance towards equality, and defended the use of the words, repeated them and other even more vulgar words to my face in my presence which forced me to seek legal counsel, who he then cursed at saying he would "hang up on your dumb ass" and that my attorney could "go jump in a stream," a suicide metaphor i believe.

then i received a "C."

please send the coursework in defense of the "C"

you will recall that i reported numerous other professors used sexual epithets in the classroom, especially in the paralegal department, and that you protected them in those

instances as well, even though the abuse was so bad it affected women studies, or caused them to drop out of classes and avoid certain professors.

mary eng

23 november update:
correspondence following a collegian interview for a LACC school newspaper on administration-protected verbal abuse and retaliation. i spoke with layla fernandez, reporter for the collegian this morning tuesday november 2010. my friend richard ray is a wonderful musician and Dj who is now assisting cristy passman. i have to admit that the excess of paperwork and processing of all the many instances of sexism and racism on the campus at LACC needs more staff! so in a way, by directing the attention to the unsatisfactory performance of professors at LACC, and making a complaint with supervisory Dr. Burnett, as well as LACCD, and the state of California, and the federal Office of Civil Rights, it seems things are getting shaken up a bit. and while i never was paid a penny for my activism, it looks like a friend got a job! so if that is what it takes, all the internet and youtubes and blogs and emails and phone calls and photocopies at kinkos have done something positive for somebody in particular.
not to mention women.
maybe we will be able to go to school one day and be totally respected, and treated completely equally and fairly, with no sexist banter from the white male voice of authority and privilege and salary and corruption.
TOTAL RESPECT!
now that's optimism!
humanitarianism.

interestingly, a court in Washington state ruled this past week that student teacher consensual adult relationships are verboten.
http://www.salon.com/life/broadsheet/2010/11/19/student_teacher

now the reason this pertains, is that lanzer repeatedly asked out an adult student, who then dropped out of his class.
and it was widely known that bartelt was dating a very beautiful young student as well.
and at which point the school becomes a place for predation is of concern. i bet she didn't get a "C" in cultural anthropology, because she didn't mind smoking pot and doing shrooms with burner in the desert. and i bet she didn't question his misogynistic language either.
submission is attractive to some people.
i bet she wasnt denied the chance to give her final presentation, as was I, in obvious retaliation.
nor was she threatened to be kicked out of anthroplogy by eckford, who cursed repeatedly in my presence and at my lawyer.
i'm guessing, she didn't have to go through any of this.
so, i of all people am pretty liberal, but if someone is being preyed on, and then grades are a part of the equation, and then other students grades are penalized for cultural differences (ie non-misogyny, or non-interest in polyphasic chemical states . . . well . . . maybe one should try match.com and leave the kids alone, and stop cursing at them too . . .)

Re: Anthropology

From:	mary eng View Contact
To:	"Passman, Cristy W"

oh thanks!

i am so glad richard ray is working with you these days.

he's a friend of mine, and i am so glad this scandal got him a job!

look out for a new article in the collegian in about a week. who knows how good the writing will be or what level of distortion will show, but in showbiz

no publicity is bad publicity right?

the young writer seemed very concerned about the school protecting verbal abuse of women and grade retaliation when they complain.

i look forward to seeing my course work.

thank you

and thanks for the "C" for cultural anthropology and verbal abuse with bartelt.

mary eng

From: "Passman, Cristy W" <passmacw@lacitycollege.edu>
To: mary eng
Sent: Tue, November 23, 2010 8:33:25 AM
Subject: Anthropology

Dear Ms. Eng,

I have your original Anthropology notebook and exam papers from Dr. Bartelt. I will have them copied and will return the originals to you as soon as possible. I will send you a confirmatory email when they are mailed.

Cristy

Cristy Passman, J.D.

Compliance Officer, Ombudsperson and

ADA Coordinator

Los Angeles City College, AD 208C

323-953-4000 ext. 2249

"C" is for corruption . . .

2010-11-16T23:20:00.000-08:00

Dear Cristy Passman, ombudsman for discrimination and harassment at Los Angeles City College,

Office of Civil Rights,

I have not yet received the graded Islamophobia Anthropology project and Final exam for which you and Bartelt gave/defend my grade of "C."

I acknowledge that you do not contend that this poor grade was retaliation for my concern regarding sexism in the classroom.

I received an "A" in biological anthropology which involved a lot of memorization in January 2010.

I studied for Cultural Anthropology beyond thoroughly and printed my extensive Islamophobia project.

As I previously requested, will you give me my final course work?

I printed and turned in my entire blogged notes and multiple drafts and copious research and would like this material back, along with my final exam.

I recognize that you do not agree that a "hostile atmosphere" contributed to grade retaliation or student performance.

I would however like "proof" of my poor performance and the grading method. I wrote to you about this months ago. You have ignored me.

I hope Bartelt has not destroyed the evidence, as he alleged he would burn our printed final projects in his back yard.

I was denied my final presentation to the class on multiple days, which i allege was from a mixture of misogyny and Islamophobia, issues which concern me greatly.

My new mailing address is

@@@

please provide

#1 an adequate response/excuse/alibi

(your previous excuses were based on Bartelt's lies)

#2 my coursework proving my "C"

recall, that Sociology department chair Eckford attempted to eject me from this class altogether and cursed at Keith Fink who spoke in my defense

you may call me at

please let me know by email that you are obtaining the documents and sending them in the mail.

if upon valuation you might notice the quality of my work, then perhaps you can explain the "C" to me as truly what it was:

retaliation for exercise of my rights to free speech in defense of a non-hostile atmosphere and equality in education

thank you!

mary eng

copy: fink

my brother's cool t-shirt idea in regards to sexist old school establishmnet

2010-11-15T23:10:00.001-08:00

"genX <= win95;"

in regards to sexism across the generation spectrum

male anthropo androcentricistic censor

2010-10-28T11:46:00.000-07:00

as anthropology and law and many or all things spring forth from the historic domination of women, politically, civically, etc.

i do not think it was wrong of me to ask bartelt of the male bias in anthropology, or his way of making anthropology.

or even the etymology of it.

cleverly he responded or muddled through a distinction between greek anthropos
verses
andros.

which was well taken and is the first thing you find upon etymological dissection of the term.

but the utterance of the historical phoneme entirely belies the total elision into anthropocentric world views in which anthropos is humanity, the general, humanos.

i asked this question to be quizzical, but also due to the tone, which dismissively reduces women to biological functions and the casualness with which he spoke of women humans: another example being, his extensive discussion of estrus, and his presumption of the female humans non-demonstration thereof, an unscientific assumption, on the spectrum.

at any rate, i thought, when i asked of male bias in anthropology, he would respond with knowledge of a serious body of work by women within anthropology who address this bias.

and in pointing at the etymological self-reflexivity of the anthropos as human (male as the general), he might acknowledge the obvious ironies implicit in our victorian vernaculars which sprung from colonial attitudes.

as if anthroplogy, were the opposite of women's studies.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Feminist_anthropology

i could not think of their names but had read of their critique.

and then when my very serious work towards the women within islam, was callously sidelined, and i was treated hostiley, and denied my presentation of a perspective regarding islamophobia and american misogyny, so truly did bartelt's personal bias make itself plain.

and so in the discrediting of every statement i made in class as "we don't want to wig anyone out here" or shouting of "t*ts and *ss" no kidding---well . . .

i am not sure what it was he was teaching besides how to lose friends and alienate people . . .
and at that point who is in whose nyongo worker cult?
see thesis
http://digitallibrary.usc.edu/search/controller/view/usctheses-m220.html

they who purvey humiliation

2010-10-28T01:15:00.000-07:00

i wonder which of the censorship-supporting professors at LACC would also support the wikileaks exposures. that would be funny on the one hand, to ask me to whitewash their mis-statements and misdeeds, and then from the other side of their mouths proclaim a victory for human rights on the internet. very fascinated lately with stieg larsson's novel men who hate women, man som hatar kvinnor.

i don't think anyone was especially hateful, but rather just ignorant and insensitive and verbally gauche. but someone like stieg larsson could see actual malicious evil at work in the world which linguistically humiliates women, and then also enacts physical violence upon them.

my optimism is overwhelmingly naff. really i ought to start believing in evil more. when i think of all the sexist epithets i heard at LACC, i cannot believe i'm still like anne frank, convinced that all humans are good at heart.

if only i could understand the banality of evil, then too i might understand the banality of LACC, or the torture of the war, or domestic violence and all verbal abuse.

i think i am coming closer to understanding darkness.

bartelt purportedly specializes in occult studies or witchcraft, which does not bother me.
i was quite concerned when he spoke in his thesis about the male magic circle to which he became initiated.

i felt concerned that he would undergo an indoctrination without an egalitarian framework, admittedly with critique, but nonetheless undergo it.
and then in addition to the animal sacrifice videos, one of a chicken being thrown into a fire, and another of a disembowelment of a living being with a human's bare hands, he brought in one of a woman.

the woman was undergoing a treatment by male practitioners. it was for some kind of malaise she experienced. and then she allowed the videotaping of this i assume.

what struck me as uncanny was the very male gaze of both the healer and the videographer. it did not seem critical of the ritual, or critical of her role as subject and patient. the underlying sexism of male dominated healing paradigms seemed to me off-putting. as if she was actually undergoing some finalizing propagandization of her subordination.

very victorian freud all over again.

as bartelt implied that the vegetarians who questioned the disembowelment (unanaesthetized too!) were racist against africa if we did not embrace animal torture as a religious practice----
he also too told us, that you cannot be an anthropologist and a vegetarian or vegan, and that you must eat the meat of the cultures you study.

olivia was quite profound to push the vegan envelope that day. i was not in the mood to be shouted at, so i said nothing, but merely wrote a few extra exclamation points.

something had changed for the worse.

in the winter term, i found it charming that bartelt made an avant-guarde statement about transsexuals being attractive. it seemed the kind of statement designed to freak out the republican army homophobic types.
but the day he asked the girl, what do women really want in a man?

i felt almost enough ill to say, how dare you presume, and hetero profile her, and how is this helping us learn anything?

but i gave him the extra points american men get against their cultural brainwashing into sexist insensitivity. i let it slide. like, "oh well he's an american" and that explains why he is sexist, insensitive, rude, etc.

sadly i have had too many lovely men in my life to abide by excessive rudeness!!!!!

my dad for instance was literally quoting coleridge at two a.m.

he was the poet . . . wan and suffering . . . extolling the genius of emily dickinson and charlotte bronte and mary shelley and mary wollstonecraft.

so a more football and "girls gone wild" or fratboy or blame the rape victim (lanzer) approach to women is completely profoundly declasse to me.

it streams through my mind like a horror novel.

and cristy passman's protection of the abuse is most disheartening.

she is probably too drunk on smog to know better. the older generation was not allowed to think independent thoughts. it makes me feel sorry for them, that their minds got eaten up by late night TV or whatever taught them to be so foul. other classmates? parents? cinema?

the choice of words is a delicate thing
can you imagine if emily dickinson or virginia woolf had to suffer through the t&a lecture? or the ridicule of anorexia and bulimia?

virginia woolf was kept out of school, by sexism.

if only she knew how retrogressive it might be.
she might be more happy reading greek in her dad's library.

but the entire aspect of not being taken seriously academically, intellectually, the offense of that stings and stings.

is it as though los angeles is in such a collective mass state of megalomania such that every prating fool finds himself to be a genius? i think perhaps. the people there have egos worthy only of gods. every day is like the valhalla march, with egos so big, i can't believe they would allow themselves to say things so stupid.

i bet everything is better than it was there at that little school. there is nothing in between. just trees. trees and smog down to LA. and then poverty and horrors of insult and oppression.

i gave up on america long ago. one day bartelt spoke deridingly of europe, and i agree somewhat. but i love the culture of kindness to women. when have i ever experienced it???? so rare it is in fact, i cannot locate a place it was to have happened. even sweden has men who hate women, even if their laws most enshrine equality.

america has dismal governmental representation, dismal pay for women. and really to get any school or work here, you must have nerves of steel to endure the harassment, and verbal denigration.

such that all i really needed was a gold star . . . or some other way of making it plain how doomed we were before we even opened our mouths at LACC.

and at that point, it just seems like a lot of dogs barking at each other. for validation of course.

a more polite culture will not be found there.

the librarian, he never said a thing wrong to me there, where i'd go to read the daily journal.

and a dj in class, he was polite. and kam pek, he noticed how the women cast their eyes down, when bartelt said disrespectful things. he felt it. eric hamilton felt it. the girl who eckford made cry felt it. elizabeth felt it.
humiliation.

and most of all for its purveyor.

le tigre

2010-10-22T23:05:00.001-07:00

transgressive eh?
for bartelt eckford lanzer lewis passman
and their anti-PC pro-sexist vulgate
+dov charney just bc

"Dude Yr So Crazy!!"--le tigre

So defeated
Thinks it's funny
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Retro Porn
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BiCostal
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Gone fishin'
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Good Contract
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the real lacc

UCLA taser

#occupywallstreet #occupyla #occupyDC

spamming for equality

dear chancellor and board of trustees

bartelt's tits and ass class

embassy of piracy los angeles city college 2009

unileaks

macho madness with MikeDiva

What Is Verbal Abuse?

Behavioral Effects

Physical Effects

Emotional Effects

i want to go back to school

the legendary magic sexism of bartelt

lacc warning system

protecting students from hatred and hate crime

get on the bus! make sure fam sues after you suicide!

smash racism, smash sexism, smash homophobia

check out "community"

nyongo worker cults and CIA forced nudity for bradley manning and fragmentation of power blocs

unileaks

gender oppression in USA needs a nice strong dose of sonje akesson

humans communicating: prisons of the mind: men who hate women

the cycle of violence can begin in language

justice---let there be light

collegian article and the $50,000 price tag quality differential

getting the california comunity college district chancellors in the loop

"C" is for corruption . . .

my brother's cool t-shirt idea in regards to sexist old school establishmnet

male anthropo androcentricistic censor

they who purvey humiliation

le tigre