or then
"i have absolutely no sympathy for anorexia or bulimia" or "shitty" this and "bitching" that.
can you imagine the trauma of being around so much negativity?????
is this academic?????
sometimes its hard to know who is treating you what way and why.
i think i got a "C" in anthropology bc i'm gay. because i'm not a real woman.
i'm not that gay but pretty gay. about half and half.
and in my history reading simone de beauvoir, irigaray, virginia woolf, kate chopin, sylvia plath, the brontes, emily dickinson, naomi wolf, julia kristeva, gertrude stein, jeanette winterson, etc----
i learned to have a good dose of disbelief about people who call women
"tits" or "tits and ass" or "slut" or "dumb woman" or "horrible woman" especially in the classroom at LACC.
or who think i want to hear the word "whore" over and over again in a movie in criminal law.
or "vagina"from professor eckford as he defends the use of "tits and ass" in anthropology. he said there would only be three words left if those words were forbidden.
this is so obviously obtuse to the future where women do not have to undergo linguistic humiliation to take a class or improve their mind.
they obviously cannot read basic law on the internet pertaining to civil rights, either.
so part of why i am not submissive to this style of "pedagogy" as eckford likes to call it, which linguistically humiliates women, and then demands their submission andd silence, is because i am too gay, or rebellious, or "psycho" as the LACC ASO creeps on facebook would have it.
it is so third reich to treat women like the ultimate jew here, and then demand we shut up and take it.
and then hear about "cowschwitz" uttered in the classroom as thouigh factory farming=holocaust bc jewish people=cows
this is just so plainly anti-semitic.
my best friend is jewish!
fricking lay off!
of everybody, women, jewish people, bulimics, transvestites-----
LACC is so stuck in the past.
i feel so extra lesbian, other, trans, jewish, polymorphic indignant around this, like valerie solanas's
scum manifesto.
i just don't get why women roll over and play dead when men insult them, and continue to consolidate various kinds of power.
my friend dustin mosley said, "that guy sounds like an a------ . . ."
pam cash said "he would have been fired if he worked at UCSD.
the point about my gayness comes up as i hear about the
don't ask don't tell conviction.
now this may be a stretch of your imagination especially if all your psychic and intellectual conditioning comes from LACC ASO senator scott clapson's unimaginative facebook wall where he maintains a little
hate-athon in my honor with pornographic epithets and anthropology club president olivia clemens diagnosis: she is "stark raving mad."
i am so sorry i ever divulged my personal feelings to olivia for her anthropology project.
she obviously has no thankfulness or comprehension, but wants to humiliate me for her little facebook ghetto.
which that is retaliatory too! why?
but i think my gayness gets in the way of accepting second-class citizenship and linguistic humiliation and epithet in the classroom.
it doesn't turn me on.
my gender identity does not involve being so humiliated.
it seems lame,
it seems unfair.
cristy passman says
"if the boys are getting off" then it is okay.
isn't it weird how she talks about LACC like porn. i think its pretty trashy of her, and mystifying that she is in charge of disciplining the professors.
monkey court!
and ah---so i feel like my lesbianism was getting in the way of my
roll over and play dead submissiveness----which the lack thereof was getting in the way of my getting an A in anthropology.
because if i could just sit there and let the insults fly, and demurely nod like its the 1950's and i have no soul---and/or i both pity/despise the men enough to expect nothing from them . . .
in fact i want them to know that this is respect.
i respect them enough to demand more.
if i were sexist like a lot of women, i might make excuses and just say, "oh he's just a man."
but i think men are people too and everybody can treat everybody fairly.
and so by asking this---i want to thank dr burnett for conducting a follow-up investigation of why cristy passman is covering up for the lame sexist abusiveness in the classroom. dr. burnett is really kind to listen to me and encourage me to dispute the "C" i was given for not being submissive or a "real woman" and just letting the "tits and ass" or "slut" fly out of professor-mouth unquestioned.
can you believe that the teacher said "transvestites teach real women how to be real women."
i think this is so offensive to so many people on so many levels.
i said so, in a very polite way, detailing the modulation of complex factors culturally, endocrinely, etc. and mentioning judith butler's seminal book
gender trouble.
he said "we don't want to wig anyone out" which etymologically is the equivalent of saying "you are on drugs" so much so that your neurons are going so fast that your wig jumps off.
this is 90's raver slang---and in itself a very rude response to a very academic argument in the face of
"transvestites teach real women how to be real women."
i don't care what passe sexist academic from USC you are citing for this convoluted ideology, it is totally unfair, and retrogressive, and not futuristic.
"we don't want to wig anyone out here"---that is not anything to say to a student who defends freedom of gender expression and freedom from gendernorm stereotyping.
i think the homophobia angle is real. i think i don't fit into somebody's stereotype of submissive doormat sh*teater so therefore----shazamm----"C."
and i still can't believe i was denied my presentation on Islam. it was part of the reason i did not drop the class---i felt the subject was so important and fascinating and i couldn't wait to share it---for the sake of building compassion.
