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this is a funny link. i think they sent the orig thru two translaters and then tried to increase their prime adwords or desired search words. its totally funny. old boys club gets changed to "old boys discotheque"!!!!!!
i am glad someone is making microcash off my writing, even if they garble it to a nonsensical extent.
hey, i am nonsensical enough without extra help, but thanks!!!!!!
power to the magical internet to self replicate and mutate! copy distribute open data forever!!!!!
for a laugh
check out:
http://harassment-training.info/the-valid-lacc.html
http://collegeroad.info/?p=81360
so i am like a totally published author, despite the significant editorial garble!!!!!
thanks for caring!!!!
Friday, 21 May 2010
theater of cruelty
as i walked from [1984] anthropology, i talked to some girls. one said another teacher (eckford) was making her cry. and that he tells her he is "too sensitive."
i mentioned this to the counselor at holmes hall, a woman of the older generation. i just stormed in and began sobbing and asked if there is counseling available. the counselor said "too sensitive" is code for a feminine perspective. and that as more women get more advanced degrees, hostility for them takes these subtle or not so subtle forms.
i told the girls that the free tuition will not be such a savings when i add up all the grief it has caused me.
i told them that i have never been pushed this far.
i marched up to social sciences department chair [1984]eckford 's office to let him know [1984] thinks "bitching" is okay for the classroom.
[1984]eckford said put it in an email.
[1984] eckford was very sympathetic when i described how awkward it is to be around an agressive male who shouts and gives into his anger and base instincts.
it is bringing out the worst in me.
[1984] told me of the way his friend is harassed for being a woman in a high position in her job and that people say its because she has "tits and ass," a phrase which resonates with hostility and a phrase which [1984] bartelt used when i asked him if he could be more respectful.
ask him about his "asshole hypothesis."
[1984] loves to take up 20 minutes explaining how there are two kinds of people in the world, assholes, and non-*holes.
contextually, [1984] was illustrating how mad he is for people thinking he's french, not german. hence, "bitching." european cultural pride can be so irrational, anyway. like what? is there something so wrong with being *? why get so angry?
and then he was saying he would be "*ing" at us if we skipped class or were late or something like that. hasn't he heard of the blogosphere? why not try to make a reputation for diplomacy, kindness, helpfulness, gentleness. i wouldn't let my children around people so foul mouthed.
when i told the ASO that their cruelty to sheila, and their protection of the harassment and intoxication of a minor was so offensive, compounded with the verbal abuse and salacious language of lanzer, lewis, and [1984]bartelt---would lead me to tell my sister
DO NOT GO TO A SCHOOL LIKE THIS.
and indeed, i told my sister.
my sister is brilliant, gentle, and elegant. i want so much more for her!!!!!!!!
i wrote bartelt a hand written note about how hard it is to come to school as i struggle with rape trauma, depression, and agraphobic-like symptoms.
why does he have to be so aggressive? "i have no sympathy for anorexia and bulimia" he said tuesday.
hearing all this agressive speech just makes me feel bad. it makes a lot of us feel . . .
the girls told me to take back the word * and even the word *. i don't use these words.
that if the teachers are going to be so disrespectful, it's okay to take those words back.
at vanderbilt, i studied simone de beauvoir, luce irigaray whose language theory bears similarity to anthropology's sapir whorf hypothesis, that language shapes the way you see the world.
i read virginia wolf, naomi klein, erica jong, all the old feminist philosophers till i was blue in the face.
i had teachers like william franke, who speaks latin, greek, italian, french, german. he studied at oxford.
his presence was like that of an angel. every word from his mouth was like poetry.
he taught augustine and dante.
david wood taught nietzsche and heidegger. he advocated ethical vegetarianism. he brought in a piano recording of nietzsche's little heard compostion, which sounded much like schubert.
dr john carpenter was expert at japanese art history, and dealt delicately with issues of gender, belief, nature, commerce in the floating world, ukiyo-e.
i am so thrilled he has a great job now at the university of london. he deserves it!
http://www.soas.ac.uk/staff/staff30727.php
he told me not to drop out of school. tat it was students like me that make teaching worthwhile.
he didn't understand the financial strain i was under. or maybe, he could imagine.
sara beardsworth taught the graduate level kristeva seminar, and allowed me to come to her classes.
she was patient and gentle and deliberate in her manner.
this was my philosophy teacher!!!!! she was so graceful and kind and respectful!!!!! i remember it.
Sara Beardsworth | ||
| Associate Professor | ||
| Ph.D., University of Warwick | ||
| Nineteenth and twentieth century European philosophy, Hegel, critical theory, feminist philosophy, psychoanalysis. Author ofJulia Kristeva: Psychoanalysis and Modernity. Editor of Julia Kristeva’s Ethical and Political Thought: Spindel Conference Proceedings. Articles on Kristeva, Freud, Irigaray, Adorno, and Benjamin" | ||
and then idit dobbs-weinstein bears no words. she had to sue vanderbilt to keep her job. she introduced me to blanchot, to shoah, to prospero's books, to dead sea soap, to fava beans. she walked with the grace of a ballet dancer. she told me something about being young, and coming into focus. she wanted us to learn as many languages as possible. she had greek and latin and hebrew and french and german.
our classes were actually like cutting deep inside etymology and text.
"festine lente," she would say: make haste slowly.
she hinted at how poorly she was treated by her colleagues, whether because of anti-semitism or sexism or . . . don't you wonder?
one of the LACC women told me how hard it is to raise a child and go to school, and she feels faculty are insensitive to her needs.
amazingly by the time i got to the health service, i was in tears.
i found jerome hard at work on a legal defense at holmes hall.
he has such a great legal mind. i told him i was so proud of him, and that my mood shot from zero to 100.
he asked me what happened in my life to make me so sensitive to discrimination and justice issues.
i told him racist police brutality, and the racist lynching of a boy when i was a child in my neighborhood in nashville tennessee. and the racist families who whose kids wouldn't play with my brother and i because we played with danielle and and danjele.
and then i told jerome, almost getting killed a few times.
getting my skull stomped on by a deranged psychotic man. getting stranggled by another deranged one. hit over the head by a carjacker. life is fragile. i should be dead. everything that happens is extra!!!
after you have almost been killed, after you have fought for your life, after you have been abused, everything is different.
there is a different kind of courage, after atrocity.
after torture.
in a sad haze after visiting [1984] and passman and jerome robinson who is working on sheila dharod's appeal and the holmes hall student health,
i sat outside theater class on the second floor of administration. it was wonderful. the teacher is great. i have stopped before to listen outside. he talked about shaw, gorky, ibsen, checkov. lighting and color and set design. magically i was transported to a more innocent time. my brain felt so happy to be around literature again, and creatives, and a genuinely enthusiastic non-hostile manner. next week they move on to theater of the absurd, my favorite, although i am fascinated by the theater of cruelty of antonin artaud.
[1984] eckfordkindly asked me to write it up (the use of the word "bitching" in class). but really this is just too much work.
too bad my friend g. is so condescending about community college. he is pretty classist and negative like that. he doesn't know what its like to be poor and want an education so desperately, you'd put up with unimaginative professors with anger issues.
cristy passman, ombudsman, said well the guys are "getting off on" the foul language, as if that alone justified it. "getting off" is a vulgar expression. i wonder where she learned it. cristy is normally defensive of the abuse, but in a polite way. but yesterday she calmly explained that if the guys are "getting off" it's okay. harassment. and she doesn't consider it harassment. and it was so much worse in the sixties, blahblahblah.
i met today the gracious jane baxter spilios of the LACC speech department. she has a gracious way, uncommon to our modern era. i told her i heard she's great teacher. it was so comforting to speak to her about language. she spent a long time with me. she is so eloquent, and is appalled at the language i have heard in the paralegal and [1984]anthropology departments.
she is from a different time.
Ms. Spilios was shocked to hear a run-down of the assorted tawdry language young LACC women encounter from their young male professors.
she recommended i cantact passman, but i explained that she is no help. she is cover-up oriented.
she collects a check for nothing, and is rude to me, in a very subtle way.
i like it that she is subtle, whereas, the teachers are more overt, out of control.
i had to explain the crude significance of "getting off" to Ms. Spilios who is not familiar with the connotation of this slang. i think she is almost eighty . . .
in her speech classes she has a specific day when they discuss language No-no's. words that will hurt the effect of your speech, impugn your character, perhaps get you fired, or damage your career. I asked her what it was like to be a writer. i told her how much i admired emily dickinson and virginia woolf. she wrote a book Improve Your Spoken English, a book written for the exchange students at LACC in the fifties. She told me about the vietnam era on campus. and fearing for her safety, when hooligan students were stealing and damaging property, prior to the campus security protection. they had a system, where they would bang on the walls, to mobilize students for defense, in case of riot or attack!
the classrooms promised to protect each other.
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Photo: Jane Baxter |
when i felt such kindness and graciousness from the counselor at the health department and from Professor Spilios, i realized that LACC has a hidden resource for me. As the tears burn my eyes, i realize, i will return to these kind gracious women, who have incredible strength of character, and wisdom.
they are not like the young women, who are so blind to the internalized misogyny and so brainwashed by TV that they think IDIOCRACY at LACC is okay.
these gracious elder women come from a time when politeness and kindness were valuable traits. they obviously value education immensely. they understood. they didn't try to blame me for feeling bad, the way cristy passman does, blaming it on my past, or my sensitivity, and complaining that i am causing too much paperwork.
i think cristy knows that her job could be in question.
she claimed yesterday, "i am just too low on the totem pole" to implement policy change.
she appreciated my offer to help distribute the harassment policy to the classroom bulletin boards.
i could be her free intern, to help stand up for students who are treated poorly.
i told her about my disability access entusiasm.
she gave me a speech about, we do so much. wonderful.
great.
but i don't think she understood my proposal: guerilla videoblogging of class and archiving for edu resource material databases. blah.
i think the internet copyriot open data revolution isn't hitting my campus. we're in a digital divide. arguing for high-tech strategies for disability rights i think is so important.
i told her about my friend with dyslexia. then she tried to blame my friend for being held back academically. i told her it was complicated. she wasn't being sensitive.
susan matranga (OSS director) was excited at first about my ides, but then was kind of rude to me, because she didn't understand my emails.
it was discouraging.
today, the counselor completely understood how demoralizing this classroom arrogance is. she let me sob. she gave me a hug. she comes from a different generation, closer to that of my grandparents, who were extremely gracious. she said i do not have to listen to the teacher's attempts to smother my voice "you have no case."
i spoke later with a friend of how it might be to be civilized and kind.
i think constantly of the film IDIOCRACY, set in a time in the future dystopia.
when i told my teacher, "the moral of the story is not to listen to women" i was making fun of how he gives preference to the boys in answering questions.
and he looked at me like "what?" i said,
"because i am a *."
i have never said this in my life. i think the bad vibes are rubbing off on me. i think i was making parody of his vulgarity, to show him how absurd he sounds. to show him that if he continually disparages women, christians, bulimics, whoever---so far as he's concerned, i am a * and i am *ing.
but i don't think of it that way at all.
i think of it like this: i care a lot about justice and fairness. my mom said my dad cared about fairness more than anyone she had ever met.
sorry about the typos and the bad language.
sorry about LACC.
on my note, i wrote "LOST CAUSE DEPARTMENT"
remembering beck: totally confused . . . he's only a person, who doesn't know *. . .
Thursday, 20 May 2010
more best of ratemyprofessors
written by students other than myself:
The one thing that you should watch out though is that he is rather rude and offensive. He seems to has this notion that because he's white saying stuff like "no more white people" is okay
He tells students never to put down others culture or religions but he always talks smack about Christians. Although I'm an agnostic its really not cool when he talks smack about others.
Yes, he does come off negative and treat students like they have learning disabilities...
With that said, he can be condescending and rude like someone mentioned, so it's hard for me (personally) to approach him and ask questions. Caution!
First I thought he was a normal person but Please no matter who you are Do Not take this guy
Very sarcastic and rude.
letter to [1984] eckford about babysitting his department
no pressure, but i hope you agree that "tits and ass" has a specific connotation that can be extremely offensive from many angles.
i wrote bartelt of anthropology a note explaining why it causes me such grief and reignites the rape (and near murder) trauma i fight daily.
he should be more considerate and respectful.
i find this word as offensive as the n-word.
it is the female equivalent.
it hurts so much.
the fact that pop culture LA uses it every other word now in every context is no excuse.
my friend * does not like his close minded style and signed her name to the complaint and has expressed her dissatisfaction.
* thinks he is unfair to her and i wrote him to tell him not to put her down when she talks.
* says his style should be more socratic, and less authoritarian.
* says that he sees the women cast their eyes down, when [1984] says negative things about women.
i am not a christian, but i think he should be careful about slurring against christians as well, as they have some big pockets for lawsuits.
after he was totally rude and unfair to * and had said "*ing" twice at the beginning of class, i could not focus on the review because i felt shaky around this crass hostile atmosphere.
i did not answer any questions.
he prefers to get his answers from men.
* said: "but that's so unfair"
harassment impairs the learning atmosphere.
two women i spoke to after class encouraged me to take back the word bitch, a concept i thought i had transcended years ago.
but since the atmosphere is so retrogressive, i guess we have to work our way up the * ladder.
i want you to know that the only reason i kept this class was so my financial aid was not revoked.
i avoid trash-mouthed people, whether in a bar or any walk of life.
it is against my spirituality to expose myself to violent words and insensitive people.
i filed a complaint with cristy do-nothing passman, as well.
i was so dismayed once again.
i spoke to a counselor in health department. she said that his email to me telling me "you have no case" was unfair.
the cumulative stress of all the horrible teachers at LACC may cause me to drop out completely.
check the collegian for the ASO scandal and the harassment of sheila dharod.
i think another lawsuit is brewing.
you would do well to keep your department on high ground.
i am afraid all the violent speech is rubbing off on me.
when i had the correct answer and my team wouldn't listen, i called it out in the end bc no one knew.
he asked why no one listened.
i rudely or sarcastically said 'the moral of the story is never listen to a woman' i was kind of joking, but in the context of his archaic chauvinism it computes
but after his rude email about "*" telling me i have
"no case" and
"am out of line" to question his shouting of the words "* and *"
and skewing the context in which he said "* and *" to be some barnyard utopia in a loud hostile tone when i asked for more respect---
i then really surprised myself by saying
"because i am a *"
which made no sense at all and was so out of character, he looked truly shocked.
i think it shines light on why he has to bully us around.
and if you know me, you will know that i hate this word so much!!!! it hurts me so much!!!
i was shaking through class. i have severe trauma.
i have been beaten multiple times and called this very word by the aggressor.
why can't he be sensitive.
what does this mean?
read up on his ratemyprofessors.com
one of them says he treats us like we have learning disabilities. which hopefully he would have compassion for that, you'd think too.
he tells us we don't read, we don't care. he projects negativity on us, which is hurtful to the learning atmosphere.
he said he has no sympathy for bulimia and anorexia and other diseases of affluence last tuesday.
those were his words.
i have lost my appetite and am dropping weight bc of the cruelty and trauma.
i don't appreciate this.
since my first complaint, i could tell he was trying to pull himself together, but i think he needs to take his anger somewhere else.
therapists are paid well for a reason.
we as students shouldn't have to be abused.
we want to learn.
won't you be glad to be rid of me,
mary eng
do you think he is [1984]ing on the job??? i can't imagine why someone would be so loose-lipped in a professional setting
the internet and DIY scanners
(PS don't eat pizza!!!! cheese is full of concentrated bioaccumulated pesticide and antibiotic residue that got into the animals system through the water food and drugs they consumed. even human breast milk has so much dioxin (and other junk) it toxifies babies. go vegan if you can!)
Wednesday, 19 May 2010
LACC collegian shout-out!
LACC GET YOUR COLORS ON!!!!!
DON"T GET DEPRESSED!
FIGHT FOR A BETTER SCHOOL!
APPRECIATE DIVERSITY!!!
DEMAND RESPECT!
Thanks LACC Collegian for shining a light on the ASO corruption!
tell the internet you are sorry
tell the internet you are sorry, if you have harassed or verbally abused students at LACC.
the internet is sorry about the blogosphere and wishes people would stop doing stupid stuff.
but warning:::::if you continue to harass women and minorities on campus I WILL BLOG ABOUT IT, so your kids can know how creepy you were back in 2010.
and if you are thinking about coming to the school, you will need so much therapy, the cheap tuition isn't so big a discount.
the way i handle stress is writing and art. sometimes spending sprees. it used to be overeating. now its undereating. i think the bad vibes at LACC are actually making me lose weight.
but i know my brain needs food. but ASO harassment, and the paralegal department harassment, and cristy passman's protection of the abuse, make me want to throw up.
kudos to the collegian!!!!!!!!! thanks for quoting me!!!!!!!!! thanks for exposing the ASO alcohol seduction of a minor scandal!!! thanks for writing about the personal attacks against sheila dharod.
unbelievable. ASO president james butler-zetino said by email (may 12 2010) he refused to read a letter in sheila's defense, and that they had her removed: "she was extracted like the cancer she is." i wish his future friends and spouse and employers a word of caution.
regarding the exculpatory letter exonerating sheila he said
"i did get the letter you wrote regarding sheila. lol . . . . "
when the author wrote back asking if it was fair,
james butler-zetino wrote:
"fair? no worries. we did not even read it. she was extracted like the cancer she is"
i want to get my hands on the email exchange.
i can't believe he would right
the collegian debuted their articles regarding the underage student who claims zetino bought her alcohol with school money and verbally harassed her in a sexual way. the student has dropped out of school.
jerome robinison is such a powerful presence and speaker.
his speech gave me the courage to give mine.
i left after that, because i wanted to get it on youtube and get some stuff done, and student government seems like a major time waste, in a addition to being a place to pick up bad manners and a hateful attitude about life. the birds outside my window are far more poetic.
i wonder what other emails would shed light on all these LACC scandals.
youtube annotation:
youtube annotation:
"if sheila were my own sister or my own daughter i would tell her please don't go to a school like this. it's just, it's just, really, really a shame. i hope you all wish better for your children."
that's me talking, mary eng. don't you like my flowing black clothes? it makes it more dramatic. but it is really sad.
i felt like a babysitter giving the motivational speech about world peace and the future.
i think ASO needs the two hour seminar version.
i bet they have been reading "winning through intimidation" instead of "how to win friends and influence people."
i apologize to the victims of their aggression.
but i appreciate everything i have learned from ASO june-may 2010:
1. attack colleagues
2. publicly humiliate yourself to such an excessive degree that people want to film it and put it on youtube in case there is a lawsuit, or someone needs to establish a record of lack of HR skills
3. pettiness
4. aggressiveness
5. mendacity
6. meanness
7. the LACC administration is lazy and unimaginative and will protect you if you harass others because they are cowardly and self-serving
8. cruelty
9. how to turn a small scandal into a big scandal through short-sightedness and amplifying the effect
(getting it all over the blogosphere and school newspaper)
10. harassing and inebriating minors is okay if you gag the witness and impeach her from your government
11. emails are forever
12. youtube is forever!!!
13. harass a woman, blame it on a woman
14. try to harass the press and intimidate them from documenting abuse
the internet is sorry about the blogosphere and wishes people would stop doing stupid stuff.
but warning:::::if you continue to harass women and minorities on campus I WILL BLOG ABOUT IT, so your kids can know how creepy you were back in 2010.
and if you are thinking about coming to the school, you will need so much therapy, the cheap tuition isn't so big a discount.
the way i handle stress is writing and art. sometimes spending sprees. it used to be overeating. now its undereating. i think the bad vibes at LACC are actually making me lose weight.
but i know my brain needs food. but ASO harassment, and the paralegal department harassment, and cristy passman's protection of the abuse, make me want to throw up.
kudos to the collegian!!!!!!!!! thanks for quoting me!!!!!!!!! thanks for exposing the ASO alcohol seduction of a minor scandal!!! thanks for writing about the personal attacks against sheila dharod.
unbelievable. ASO president james butler-zetino said by email (may 12 2010) he refused to read a letter in sheila's defense, and that they had her removed: "she was extracted like the cancer she is." i wish his future friends and spouse and employers a word of caution.
regarding the exculpatory letter exonerating sheila he said
"i did get the letter you wrote regarding sheila. lol . . . . "
when the author wrote back asking if it was fair,
james butler-zetino wrote:
"fair? no worries. we did not even read it. she was extracted like the cancer she is"
i want to get my hands on the email exchange.
i can't believe he would right
the collegian debuted their articles regarding the underage student who claims zetino bought her alcohol with school money and verbally harassed her in a sexual way. the student has dropped out of school.
jerome robinison is such a powerful presence and speaker.
his speech gave me the courage to give mine.
i left after that, because i wanted to get it on youtube and get some stuff done, and student government seems like a major time waste, in a addition to being a place to pick up bad manners and a hateful attitude about life. the birds outside my window are far more poetic.
i wonder what other emails would shed light on all these LACC scandals.
youtube annotation:
jerome robinson reads cruel "extracted like the cancer she is" email penned by LACC ASO president james butler-zetino.
the collegian today published an expose of zetino's alleged harassment of a minor and attempt to get her drunk on school money.
unbelievably, the ASO president, in addition to supporting the defamation campaign of sheila dharod (who exposed the corruption), has no clue about email as e-evidence. do not say anything in an email you don't want to see in court, or that conveys corruption and such animosity and cruelty. amazing that this comes to light.
LACC feels like a greek tragedy.
with so much hatefulness, i feel fear.
thank you jerome for shining a light on this cruelty!
youtube annotation:
"if sheila were my own sister or my own daughter i would tell her please don't go to a school like this. it's just, it's just, really, really a shame. i hope you all wish better for your children."
that's me talking, mary eng. don't you like my flowing black clothes? it makes it more dramatic. but it is really sad.
i felt like a babysitter giving the motivational speech about world peace and the future.
i think ASO needs the two hour seminar version.
i bet they have been reading "winning through intimidation" instead of "how to win friends and influence people."
i apologize to the victims of their aggression.
but i appreciate everything i have learned from ASO june-may 2010:
1. attack colleagues
2. publicly humiliate yourself to such an excessive degree that people want to film it and put it on youtube in case there is a lawsuit, or someone needs to establish a record of lack of HR skills
3. pettiness
4. aggressiveness
5. mendacity
6. meanness
7. the LACC administration is lazy and unimaginative and will protect you if you harass others because they are cowardly and self-serving
8. cruelty
9. how to turn a small scandal into a big scandal through short-sightedness and amplifying the effect
(getting it all over the blogosphere and school newspaper)
10. harassing and inebriating minors is okay if you gag the witness and impeach her from your government
11. emails are forever
12. youtube is forever!!!
13. harass a woman, blame it on a woman
14. try to harass the press and intimidate them from documenting abuse
Tuesday, 18 May 2010
at least LACC doesn't taser us!
duffy is amazing!!!!!
i cherish these classes!!!!
learning all about the civil rts act!!!
[1984] is amazing too---when it comes to the economy and globalization. too bad he shut down broadcasts and doesn't like the blogosphere.
watching a few classes would change the way you shop, vote, bank, eat. now all the highlighting of those egregious moments, have prompted a change. it is a perceptible change. and i bet he will be an even more amazing teacher in 30 years. and that learning to respect women in the classroom could happen at any age, and the sooner the better. it is because he is a great teacher that he is worth the time to fine-tune the kinks. thats what yelp and ratemyprof etc are all about. youtube.
too bad he doesn't like the internet.
check this footage: UCLA security tasering a handcuffed student in 2006
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/UCLA_Taser_incident
RIP
LACC student executed by LAPD for autism or existing or whatever . . .
http://latimesblogs.latimes.com/lanow/2010/03/man-fatally-shot-in-confrontation-with-police-near-koreatown.html
from LAT:
schoolplaces can be crime scenes.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/anushay-hossain/murder-in-jeffersons-vill_b_566424.html
http://www.readthehook.com/blog/index.php/2010/05/11/dangerous-rage-what-compelled-huguely-to-attack/
murder on a campus back east.
all the anger and hate i saw at ASO actually really scares me.
i don't think we here at city college are going to taser and murder each other. cross your fingers.
but this stuff is worth being careful.
when passions run high, it is better not to insult each other. all the slurs and back biting, i think come from personal issues, or economic woes, or deep-seated trauma.
i don't think anyone on campus really hates women, or sheila dharod. i think they are just projecting their negative feelings about their self-esteem or their past bad relationship, onto particular victims, women in general, minorities, or whoever else is the recipient of hate.
i don't think a confident happy person would attack someone so viciously. or go along with it like jay cortez and gene fernandez did at the ASO.
so 1984.
verbal abuse lasts a lifetime.
i for one have a great memory. if you are going to insult me or talk down to me, i will remember it forever.
that's why we should be nice and peaceful to each other. every time i see the ASO people i say "stop the hate" and "peace and kindness" and such things.
i don't feel like i can have a conversation with the people who i witnessed engage in a vicious mob attack against sheila.
i feel a bad energy cloud. a little shaky just thinking about it. it impairs my feeling of safety. mad dogs with blood on their fangs.
i am soooooooooo glad its on youtube.
true they didn't taser sheila and put her in handcuffs. but they staged a mob attack. gosh it hurts me that they would do this to anyone, woman or man, from any background.
i am soooooooo sensitive about racism. i saw police beating a man in tennessee when i was seven. racial profiling and public beatings.
why can't we just love one another?
the days are too long for hatred.
the office of civil rights federal division is about to start their investigation when i get my release back to them.
i wonder if anyone at the American Bar Association cares that all the professors of the paralegal department rolled over and played dead while a paralegal student in our program was harassed, defamed, and humiliated in violation of fed and state law and ASO process.
duffy witnessed it.
he knows the rules that were broken by the ASO.
i wish he could come forward.
i bet he can't jeopardize his salary.
vargas acts like he doesn't know what's going on.
that's smart.
so i sent my letter to the american bar association because i think a paralegal program should have an outstanding level of ethicality when it comes to ensure that all students regardless of gender or background.
and professor harassment doesn't help. nor do professors who role over and play dead when a woman is burned at the stake for exposing administration and student corruption.
viva the internet!!!!!!
i cherish these classes!!!!
learning all about the civil rts act!!!
[1984] is amazing too---when it comes to the economy and globalization. too bad he shut down broadcasts and doesn't like the blogosphere.
watching a few classes would change the way you shop, vote, bank, eat. now all the highlighting of those egregious moments, have prompted a change. it is a perceptible change. and i bet he will be an even more amazing teacher in 30 years. and that learning to respect women in the classroom could happen at any age, and the sooner the better. it is because he is a great teacher that he is worth the time to fine-tune the kinks. thats what yelp and ratemyprof etc are all about. youtube.
too bad he doesn't like the internet.
i thought with him being young he would be hip to the web. well i sort of hoped.
check this footage: UCLA security tasering a handcuffed student in 2006
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/UCLA_Taser_incident
(send sargeant Pfeiffer a thank you note for not tasering you [if you are from the middle east] on campus!!!!! now you love LACC!!!! can you believe this????? tasering at UCLA!!!!)
RIP
LACC student executed by LAPD for autism or existing or whatever . . .
http://latimesblogs.latimes.com/lanow/2010/03/man-fatally-shot-in-confrontation-with-police-near-koreatown.html
from LAT:
Man shot dead in confrontation with police near Koreatown
March 20, 2010 | 1:26 pm
A Los Angeles police officer shot a man to death early Saturday morning east of Koreatown.
Police said the shooting occurred around midnight but they did not have any further information.
-- Jessica Garrison
Shoot first, ask questions later?
Posted by: Tom | March 20, 2010 at 07:52 PM
schoolplaces can be crime scenes.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/anushay-hossain/murder-in-jeffersons-vill_b_566424.html
http://www.readthehook.com/blog/index.php/2010/05/11/dangerous-rage-what-compelled-huguely-to-attack/
murder on a campus back east.
all the anger and hate i saw at ASO actually really scares me.
i don't think we here at city college are going to taser and murder each other. cross your fingers.
but this stuff is worth being careful.
when passions run high, it is better not to insult each other. all the slurs and back biting, i think come from personal issues, or economic woes, or deep-seated trauma.
i don't think anyone on campus really hates women, or sheila dharod. i think they are just projecting their negative feelings about their self-esteem or their past bad relationship, onto particular victims, women in general, minorities, or whoever else is the recipient of hate.
i don't think a confident happy person would attack someone so viciously. or go along with it like jay cortez and gene fernandez did at the ASO.
so 1984.
verbal abuse lasts a lifetime.
i for one have a great memory. if you are going to insult me or talk down to me, i will remember it forever.
that's why we should be nice and peaceful to each other. every time i see the ASO people i say "stop the hate" and "peace and kindness" and such things.
i don't feel like i can have a conversation with the people who i witnessed engage in a vicious mob attack against sheila.
i feel a bad energy cloud. a little shaky just thinking about it. it impairs my feeling of safety. mad dogs with blood on their fangs.
i am soooooooooo glad its on youtube.
true they didn't taser sheila and put her in handcuffs. but they staged a mob attack. gosh it hurts me that they would do this to anyone, woman or man, from any background.
i am soooooooo sensitive about racism. i saw police beating a man in tennessee when i was seven. racial profiling and public beatings.
why can't we just love one another?
the days are too long for hatred.
the office of civil rights federal division is about to start their investigation when i get my release back to them.
i wonder if anyone at the American Bar Association cares that all the professors of the paralegal department rolled over and played dead while a paralegal student in our program was harassed, defamed, and humiliated in violation of fed and state law and ASO process.
duffy witnessed it.
he knows the rules that were broken by the ASO.
i wish he could come forward.
i bet he can't jeopardize his salary.
vargas acts like he doesn't know what's going on.
that's smart.
so i sent my letter to the american bar association because i think a paralegal program should have an outstanding level of ethicality when it comes to ensure that all students regardless of gender or background.
and professor harassment doesn't help. nor do professors who role over and play dead when a woman is burned at the stake for exposing administration and student corruption.
viva the internet!!!!!!
Saturday, 15 May 2010
mob cruelty at ASO LACC
civil rights at ASO in question. can a woman be ejected from the student government for exposing school corruption?
jerome robinson!!! he was the first to use the word "lynching."
sadly, scott clapson threatened me with a cease and desist letter from LACCD counsel if i used the word lynching, which was used in the first week's proceedings.
hate-free zone
the signal is quite weak today. hope this publishes.
LACC needs better internet. talked with the moore and peters about IT block of videostream for bambusering classes for disability access. we need online curricula. archived lectures. for the dyslexic, the blind, and for all of us. for the people who can't afford the time spent going to free school at LACC. even if we are poor as dirt, we are rich to afford the luxury of the time it takes to study at free community college.
Vargas is such a great teacher. i am listening to his family law class right now.
had a great time yesterday talking to dr. jamillah moore, president of the university, and to earic peters.
they were supportive of the idea for an Equality Coalition. Earic peters had a lot of good ideas for the social equity club idea. Jamillah encouraged me to finish my paralegal degree and not get too caught up in club ideas. I actually am thinking along the lines of a civil rights study group, looking at the ADA and civil rights acts in terms of how they affect students.
the most telling part was in which i explained that students do not understand the procedure, and that is where the club might serve as an interface, to make the procedure and the law comprehensible and universally understood for all students.
ala
these are your rights
this is what to do if they are infringed upon
do not take it lying down.
blahblahblah.
jamillah said that is what perhaps she and earic as administrators take for granted, that we know what to do, that the process is in the handbook.
i told them how the first time i heard offensive things in class, i stumbled around from room to room, looking for the administrative process, in disbelief.
i told the department chair, but he was unbelievably protective of the abuse.
i felt anxiety, like i had no where to go.
and now, that i am both more knowledgable, and more violated by LACC, i feel that my initial gut instinct, that the offenses were unacceptable in a professional atmosphere---now has given way to the understanding that LACC considers the abuse protectable "free speech" or "academic freedom" even if it is racist and sexist.
i wonder.
i mentioned that a club could be an interface between the policy and the students, who often feel uncomfortable, or submerge their critique with ignorance or distrust of the grievance procedure. while i understand the grievance procedure, i distrust it.
someone from LACCD left an unidentified message on my voicemail explaining that they refer me to christie passman. i duplicated my complaints, so they could be "in the loop."
the sort of pass the buck poker game is a bit entertaining. that they couldn't identify themselves on the message was quite funny. it was like, "hi. not our problem. bye."
i realize there was a procedural error with my 2009 complaint. i found a rules and grievance procedure redux, to which i am entitled copies, which describes my right to make an oral statement to the college president or to the deputy chancellor.
i never was given the opportunity.
jamillah in 2009 referred me back down to CO cristy passman (compliance officer) and now she tells me we cannot talk about my discrimination claim pending the investigation.
quoting from the leaflet outside cristy passman's door
i am going to send this to cristy and ask how she interprets this. i think i have a chance to explain to the decision making bodies, and that this right has been blurred over in the interpretation of the policy.
that is a little bit funny.
interesting class at PSU "emotional abuse in the workplace." My mother tells me the anti-hate speech standards are very strict in the Oregon hospitals where she works, and absolutely no harassment on gender lines, racist, or homophobic is permitted in a professional context.
i like the concept hate free zone.
i wish we could make LACC a hate free zone.
when i see ASO flyers, i tag them with a sharpie, "STOP THE HATE."
deep in the heart of campassion, there is a beautiful future for the students of LACC, and anywhere.
MLK died at 37.
civil rights are not something you can procrastinate.
if your professor disrespects you, or harasses you, do not submerge yourself in shyness, and self-hatred, and submissiveness.
tell the teacher they are making you uncomfortable.
tell them they are violating equality in education statutes.
tell your administrators.
blog it.
and likewise, if you are screamed at by students, or savaged by their cruelty and accusations, speak up.
the ASO for all i can see is a HATE club which cruelly defamed a very wonderful person who i admire. they need a lot more love and cooperation.
i am sorry i ever witnessed what i did.
LACC needs better internet. talked with the moore and peters about IT block of videostream for bambusering classes for disability access. we need online curricula. archived lectures. for the dyslexic, the blind, and for all of us. for the people who can't afford the time spent going to free school at LACC. even if we are poor as dirt, we are rich to afford the luxury of the time it takes to study at free community college.
Vargas is such a great teacher. i am listening to his family law class right now.
had a great time yesterday talking to dr. jamillah moore, president of the university, and to earic peters.
they were supportive of the idea for an Equality Coalition. Earic peters had a lot of good ideas for the social equity club idea. Jamillah encouraged me to finish my paralegal degree and not get too caught up in club ideas. I actually am thinking along the lines of a civil rights study group, looking at the ADA and civil rights acts in terms of how they affect students.
the most telling part was in which i explained that students do not understand the procedure, and that is where the club might serve as an interface, to make the procedure and the law comprehensible and universally understood for all students.
ala
these are your rights
this is what to do if they are infringed upon
do not take it lying down.
blahblahblah.
jamillah said that is what perhaps she and earic as administrators take for granted, that we know what to do, that the process is in the handbook.
i told them how the first time i heard offensive things in class, i stumbled around from room to room, looking for the administrative process, in disbelief.
i told the department chair, but he was unbelievably protective of the abuse.
i felt anxiety, like i had no where to go.
and now, that i am both more knowledgable, and more violated by LACC, i feel that my initial gut instinct, that the offenses were unacceptable in a professional atmosphere---now has given way to the understanding that LACC considers the abuse protectable "free speech" or "academic freedom" even if it is racist and sexist.
i wonder.
i mentioned that a club could be an interface between the policy and the students, who often feel uncomfortable, or submerge their critique with ignorance or distrust of the grievance procedure. while i understand the grievance procedure, i distrust it.
someone from LACCD left an unidentified message on my voicemail explaining that they refer me to christie passman. i duplicated my complaints, so they could be "in the loop."
the sort of pass the buck poker game is a bit entertaining. that they couldn't identify themselves on the message was quite funny. it was like, "hi. not our problem. bye."
i realize there was a procedural error with my 2009 complaint. i found a rules and grievance procedure redux, to which i am entitled copies, which describes my right to make an oral statement to the college president or to the deputy chancellor.
i never was given the opportunity.
jamillah in 2009 referred me back down to CO cristy passman (compliance officer) and now she tells me we cannot talk about my discrimination claim pending the investigation.
quoting from the leaflet outside cristy passman's door
"the college president or deputy chancellor shall independently assess whether the 'preponderance of the evidence' establishes a violation and shall determine what action is taken, if any. Prior to making the decision, the alleged offender and alleged victim shall have the opportunity to make an oral statement, within 15 days from the receipt of the CO report."
i am going to send this to cristy and ask how she interprets this. i think i have a chance to explain to the decision making bodies, and that this right has been blurred over in the interpretation of the policy.
that is a little bit funny.
interesting class at PSU "emotional abuse in the workplace." My mother tells me the anti-hate speech standards are very strict in the Oregon hospitals where she works, and absolutely no harassment on gender lines, racist, or homophobic is permitted in a professional context.
i like the concept hate free zone.
i wish we could make LACC a hate free zone.
when i see ASO flyers, i tag them with a sharpie, "STOP THE HATE."
deep in the heart of campassion, there is a beautiful future for the students of LACC, and anywhere.
MLK died at 37.
civil rights are not something you can procrastinate.
if your professor disrespects you, or harasses you, do not submerge yourself in shyness, and self-hatred, and submissiveness.
tell the teacher they are making you uncomfortable.
tell them they are violating equality in education statutes.
tell your administrators.
blog it.
and likewise, if you are screamed at by students, or savaged by their cruelty and accusations, speak up.
the ASO for all i can see is a HATE club which cruelly defamed a very wonderful person who i admire. they need a lot more love and cooperation.
i am sorry i ever witnessed what i did.
Wednesday, 12 May 2010
discrimination in all aspects of education
EDUCATION
* A child has difficulty speaking English, but her school does not provide her with the necessary assistance to help her learn English and other subjects.
* A majority Haitian school does not offer honors classes. Other schools in the district that do not have many Haitian students offer both honors and advanced placement courses.
These examples may be violations of federal law, which prohibits discrimination in education because of a person's national origin. The Division's Educational Opportunities Section enforces these laws in elementary and secondary schools as well as public colleges and universities. The Education Section's work addresses discrimination in all aspects of education, including assignment of students to schools and classes, transportation of students, hiring and placement of faculty and administrators, distribution of school resources, and provision of educational programs that assist limited English speaking students in learning English.
To file a complaint or for more information, contact the Education Section at (202) 514-4092, or write to:
U.S. Department of Justice
Civil Rights Division
950 Pennsylvania Avenue, N.W.
Educational Opportunities Section, PHB
Washington, D.C. 20530
* A child has difficulty speaking English, but her school does not provide her with the necessary assistance to help her learn English and other subjects.
* A majority Haitian school does not offer honors classes. Other schools in the district that do not have many Haitian students offer both honors and advanced placement courses.
These examples may be violations of federal law, which prohibits discrimination in education because of a person's national origin. The Division's Educational Opportunities Section enforces these laws in elementary and secondary schools as well as public colleges and universities. The Education Section's work addresses discrimination in all aspects of education, including assignment of students to schools and classes, transportation of students, hiring and placement of faculty and administrators, distribution of school resources, and provision of educational programs that assist limited English speaking students in learning English.
To file a complaint or for more information, contact the Education Section at (202) 514-4092, or write to:
U.S. Department of Justice
Civil Rights Division
950 Pennsylvania Avenue, N.W.
Educational Opportunities Section, PHB
Washington, D.C. 20530
Title IX, Education Amendments of 1972
Prohibition against discrimination; exceptions. No person in the United States shall, on the basis of sex, be excluded from participation in, be denied the benefits of, or be subjected to discrimination under any education program or activity receiving Federal financial assistance, except . . .
Title IX, Education Amendments of 1972
(Title 20 U.S.C. Sections 1681-1688)
Title IX, Education Amendments of 1972
(Title 20 U.S.C. Sections 1681-1688)
Monday, 10 May 2010
STOP THE HATE, speak no violence
hey!
i saw jamillah moore today and she said that our meeting on friday will only be about the future of my "Equality Coalition " club. she is not at liberty to discuss the complaints regarding student, professor or ASO harassment which are undergoing investigation.
i want to apologize to anyone who has looked at this blog.
as i walked across campus today i got tears in my eyes thinking about how much LACC means to me.
i have seen both sides of the academic spectrum in america.
as a poor scholarship kid at a really expensive school, i saw the excesses of the rich kid-frat lifestyle.
it really hurt to have no money for food or clothes and to be surrounded with insanely rich kids with big egos.
going to LACC is so drastically different.
i love the diversity in age groups.
i love the feeling that people who are here really want to be here.
we are making huge sacrifices to go to school.
i love to hear so many languages on campus.
i want to learn armenian, russian, hebrew, Filipino, korean. i want more spanish.
i want arabic too!
i want it all!
i want to embrace the many cultures of LACC and make it a better safer place for all of us.
in a way, my own prejudices run high.
i really don't like a lot of things about american politics and culture.
i don't like the way women are shut out of the political process.
in norway the ministry of equality repaired the system with near 50-50 women and men in balance in government.
i think we could do this too, and i am excited that another woman may sit on the US Supreme court.
as i looked at the collegian today, i realized what a good job they are doing.
i loved the article about the polisci teacher who took inspiration from both malcolm x and MLK.
i felt so sad about the armenian genocide, and the murder of the autistic student by the LAPD in koreatown.
i completely love the fact that they are writing about the lack of healthy food on campus.
the styrofoam really bothers me.
we have to lose the styrofoam!!!
it's illegal in portland oregon!
it leaches into food and is really bad for the human health!
oh my gosh i am so excited about this company they profiled for healthy nutrition vending
http://www.healthyvending.com/
as a vegan on campus, the options are pretty non-existent.
potato chips and french fries from pure luck are well . . . pretty much fried potatoes.
and those have acrylamide, a carcinogen.
raw fruit or veggies would be so much nicer!!
thanks collegian for asking for organic food on campus.
i hope the collegian liked my "press kit" for all the materials i prepared in the last week regarding various acts of hate and intolerance on campus. sexism is alive and well in some communities. we can accept diversity without accepting an abridgment of our rights or dignity.
just because some of our professors come from a male-dominated culture which continually objectifies, ridicules, underpays, and ostracizes women, doesn't mean we should "accept" their attempts to inflict their cultural values on us.
in fact, the powerful will win!
and if we, as students take back our power to resist oppression, resist indoctrination, and resist a blind sheep-like attitude which some of our teachers try to cultivate---we might actually change the classroom dynamic to reflect a more modern viewpoint.
we are more collaborative, more consensus based.
i think young people are very fair.
we are very skeptical!
we don't accept authoritarianism well!
we want to participate and be heard and we don't want to disrespect each other, the earth . . .
human dignity should come first.
at the administration building today, i saw a great quote from mother theresa.
it said, "peace begins with a smile."
i want to offer this challenge to the ASO: stop the hate!
can we have peace on campus, knowing the ASO is using its power to victimize and humiliate fellow students!!!!??????????
my conscience will not allow me to witness this much brutality!!!!
that is why my letters and documents are going out to
the federal office of civil rights, sacramento community college association, the american bar association, the LA county bar association, the student press law center, the GLBT center's legal office, gene little diversity coordinator for LACCD, bet tzedek's holocaust survivor group, and then on campus: cristy passman, lawrence bradford, jamillah moore, joyce moore, and the collegian.
please do not use the word "NAZI" in ASO documents!!! i cannot believe that ASO is so callous!!!!
my roommate just moved out after saying something anti-semitic.
he said, i'm sorry i didn't know you were jewish.
i lost a best friend over that.
i told her she could not say anti-semitic things around me.
another friend and i never saw each other again after a day in which he tried to explain to me his stereotype of "african'american english."
i told him he seemed to be making such a crass generalization, and that after growing up in the south, i could attest to the fact of so many educated eloquent persons of color in many fields.
i spent a semester at the historically black Tennessee State University. it was amazing. that the schools were historically segregated!!! and that the residual racism in the south is high!!! and going to TSU was so empowering!!!! there were so many incredibly focussed academically motivated people going to school there!
i am really sorry too that the learning resource center has been robbed.
i am really sorry that the ASO has been circulating sheila dharod's personal address and telephone number as a part of their defamation campaign.
they didn't even have the insight to black it out!
sheila dharod actually helped me for my anthropology project one day as we discussed the many religions of india. one of our classmates came from an islamic family. sheila explained that in india the many religions can co-exist. she said she had family members that came from the jain tradition.
i really like jainism. gandhi's mother was jain. jains beieve in non-violence (ahimsa) as their highest principle.
the typical hierarchy of violence
1. physical--the obvious---punch, kill, maim, etc
2. verbal--speaking violent words
3. thought---imagining violence, or wishing harm upon someone
is actually a FALSE HIERARCHY!!!
in jain thought--to think violence is as powerful as to physically hurt someone, to verbally attack their character is also the same as to think of hurting someone.
i found this little bit of wisdom in 2003 in a yoga magazine. it really helped me a lot.
so ahimsa--or nonviolence---must be integrated into the speech and the mind.
when the ASO launches a personal attack and says a lot of mean unsubstantiated things about sheila, they are really unleashing a tyrrany of violence, which is impacting all of us.
my compassion has allowed me to feel this in my heart!!
i realized one day, what is going on?
am i trying to turn LACC into some spiritual utopia, where no one says anything rude or unkind?
am i trying to turn it into a mystical vaguely buddhist monastery or something?
as in, am i trying to enforce my cultural ideals on the community???
is there some truth though to the concept of charity, kindness?
my father said, "never say an unkind word."
if you know me or hang out with me, you know that i do not like backbiting, cursing, sexist words, racism.
i wish people would have a more jainistic understanding of language. that the language they use can do real physical harm to the people they inflict it upon.
so all the hatefulness i witnessed at ASO and recorded for youtube just eats my soul.
my teacher brian bartelt, the day of his outburst, was discussing something from his brilliant thesis paper. he references the crystalline structure of water as it can be altered by sound, an idea popular in many meditational practices.
http://spiritofmaat.com/archive/aug1/consciouswater.html
and with that as premise, if our bodies are water, and sound and thought can change the structure of water, isn't that all the more reason not to abuse each other with words of hate and disrespect.
that my class could vear from so much brilliance to so much banality in a matter of minutes astounded me.
i have really held bartelt to task for some fine-tuning.
he has a clean web trail. i resisted looking him up for weeks, because i resent the invasions of the facebook culture. all i found was this.
http://digitallibrary.usc.edu/search/controller/view/usctheses-m220.html
i read it twice and a half.
i would set my text to speech to read it to me so i could really learn it. it's brilliant. in a way, i still have hope. i tend to avoid truly hopeless causes. that i ask bartelt to be more respectful, is because i have faith that it is in the range of possibility. i hope he is smart enough to see now, why it is important. i am sorry his verbal excesses have made it into this blog.
there is a sad weird thing about internet speech.
i have been reading about it here http://www.splc.org/
as a purveyor of the open data ethos and un-intellectual property spirit, i am all for sharing, republication, no rights reserved, replication, copy, alter, remix, distort.
share freely and realize property is an illusion!!!!!!
maybe i should make an LACC rap?
i feel like some of ye olde professors don't know much about the internet.
i think some great entrepreneurs will come up with a YELP for schools, which is better than ratemyprofessors.com, and more comprehensive.
wouldn't that be great???
so when teachers try to get away with crazy stuff in class they really should be prepared to see it go up on to the blogosphere immediately!!!!
and same for fellow students who can't keep there hatefulness to the privacy of their minds, but for some reason, want to spew it all over us like vomit.
ASO, stop the hate!!!
hmmm.
and what is the fine line between peacefulness in speech and satygraha, truth action?
i can't stand by and see so much violence at LACC. it is liek a microcosm of all the worst in humankind, being enacted upon us.
how can i demand justice and peacefulness and move into the future?
how can i forget what i have seen???
if teachers and students continue to be so abusive to each other, i think we will need a better counseling department.
it seems strange to me that people can be so cruel to each other on campus especially in light of alll the columbines and the recent yale murder.
schools can be dangerous places!
please don't contribute to violence.
realize your harassment can induce depression, appetite loss, addictions, even suicide, murder.
don't hurt us with your words.
do not contribute to the suffering which might induce catastrophe!
and if anybody on the campus has violent tendencies, do not push them over the edge with racism, sexism, and other intolerances!
this is dangerous!
teachers!!!!
students!!!!
please!!!!!
STOP THE HATE
LACC stay positive.
the crushed budget has been really hard on us this year.
i am so sorry the summer session is canceled too!
i saw jamillah moore today and she said that our meeting on friday will only be about the future of my "Equality Coalition " club. she is not at liberty to discuss the complaints regarding student, professor or ASO harassment which are undergoing investigation.
i want to apologize to anyone who has looked at this blog.
as i walked across campus today i got tears in my eyes thinking about how much LACC means to me.
i have seen both sides of the academic spectrum in america.
as a poor scholarship kid at a really expensive school, i saw the excesses of the rich kid-frat lifestyle.
it really hurt to have no money for food or clothes and to be surrounded with insanely rich kids with big egos.
going to LACC is so drastically different.
i love the diversity in age groups.
i love the feeling that people who are here really want to be here.
we are making huge sacrifices to go to school.
i love to hear so many languages on campus.
i want to learn armenian, russian, hebrew, Filipino, korean. i want more spanish.
i want arabic too!
i want it all!
i want to embrace the many cultures of LACC and make it a better safer place for all of us.
in a way, my own prejudices run high.
i really don't like a lot of things about american politics and culture.
i don't like the way women are shut out of the political process.
in norway the ministry of equality repaired the system with near 50-50 women and men in balance in government.
i think we could do this too, and i am excited that another woman may sit on the US Supreme court.
as i looked at the collegian today, i realized what a good job they are doing.
i loved the article about the polisci teacher who took inspiration from both malcolm x and MLK.
i felt so sad about the armenian genocide, and the murder of the autistic student by the LAPD in koreatown.
i completely love the fact that they are writing about the lack of healthy food on campus.
the styrofoam really bothers me.
we have to lose the styrofoam!!!
it's illegal in portland oregon!
it leaches into food and is really bad for the human health!
oh my gosh i am so excited about this company they profiled for healthy nutrition vending
http://www.healthyvending.com/
as a vegan on campus, the options are pretty non-existent.
potato chips and french fries from pure luck are well . . . pretty much fried potatoes.
and those have acrylamide, a carcinogen.
raw fruit or veggies would be so much nicer!!
thanks collegian for asking for organic food on campus.
i hope the collegian liked my "press kit" for all the materials i prepared in the last week regarding various acts of hate and intolerance on campus. sexism is alive and well in some communities. we can accept diversity without accepting an abridgment of our rights or dignity.
just because some of our professors come from a male-dominated culture which continually objectifies, ridicules, underpays, and ostracizes women, doesn't mean we should "accept" their attempts to inflict their cultural values on us.
in fact, the powerful will win!
and if we, as students take back our power to resist oppression, resist indoctrination, and resist a blind sheep-like attitude which some of our teachers try to cultivate---we might actually change the classroom dynamic to reflect a more modern viewpoint.
we are more collaborative, more consensus based.
i think young people are very fair.
we are very skeptical!
we don't accept authoritarianism well!
we want to participate and be heard and we don't want to disrespect each other, the earth . . .
human dignity should come first.
at the administration building today, i saw a great quote from mother theresa.
it said, "peace begins with a smile."
i want to offer this challenge to the ASO: stop the hate!
can we have peace on campus, knowing the ASO is using its power to victimize and humiliate fellow students!!!!??????????
my conscience will not allow me to witness this much brutality!!!!
that is why my letters and documents are going out to
the federal office of civil rights, sacramento community college association, the american bar association, the LA county bar association, the student press law center, the GLBT center's legal office, gene little diversity coordinator for LACCD, bet tzedek's holocaust survivor group, and then on campus: cristy passman, lawrence bradford, jamillah moore, joyce moore, and the collegian.
please do not use the word "NAZI" in ASO documents!!! i cannot believe that ASO is so callous!!!!
my roommate just moved out after saying something anti-semitic.
he said, i'm sorry i didn't know you were jewish.
i lost a best friend over that.
i told her she could not say anti-semitic things around me.
another friend and i never saw each other again after a day in which he tried to explain to me his stereotype of "african'american english."
i told him he seemed to be making such a crass generalization, and that after growing up in the south, i could attest to the fact of so many educated eloquent persons of color in many fields.
i spent a semester at the historically black Tennessee State University. it was amazing. that the schools were historically segregated!!! and that the residual racism in the south is high!!! and going to TSU was so empowering!!!! there were so many incredibly focussed academically motivated people going to school there!
i am really sorry too that the learning resource center has been robbed.
i am really sorry that the ASO has been circulating sheila dharod's personal address and telephone number as a part of their defamation campaign.
they didn't even have the insight to black it out!
sheila dharod actually helped me for my anthropology project one day as we discussed the many religions of india. one of our classmates came from an islamic family. sheila explained that in india the many religions can co-exist. she said she had family members that came from the jain tradition.
i really like jainism. gandhi's mother was jain. jains beieve in non-violence (ahimsa) as their highest principle.
the typical hierarchy of violence
1. physical--the obvious---punch, kill, maim, etc
2. verbal--speaking violent words
3. thought---imagining violence, or wishing harm upon someone
is actually a FALSE HIERARCHY!!!
in jain thought--to think violence is as powerful as to physically hurt someone, to verbally attack their character is also the same as to think of hurting someone.
i found this little bit of wisdom in 2003 in a yoga magazine. it really helped me a lot.
so ahimsa--or nonviolence---must be integrated into the speech and the mind.
when the ASO launches a personal attack and says a lot of mean unsubstantiated things about sheila, they are really unleashing a tyrrany of violence, which is impacting all of us.
my compassion has allowed me to feel this in my heart!!
i realized one day, what is going on?
am i trying to turn LACC into some spiritual utopia, where no one says anything rude or unkind?
am i trying to turn it into a mystical vaguely buddhist monastery or something?
as in, am i trying to enforce my cultural ideals on the community???
is there some truth though to the concept of charity, kindness?
my father said, "never say an unkind word."
if you know me or hang out with me, you know that i do not like backbiting, cursing, sexist words, racism.
i wish people would have a more jainistic understanding of language. that the language they use can do real physical harm to the people they inflict it upon.
so all the hatefulness i witnessed at ASO and recorded for youtube just eats my soul.
my teacher brian bartelt, the day of his outburst, was discussing something from his brilliant thesis paper. he references the crystalline structure of water as it can be altered by sound, an idea popular in many meditational practices.
http://spiritofmaat.com/archive/aug1/consciouswater.html
and with that as premise, if our bodies are water, and sound and thought can change the structure of water, isn't that all the more reason not to abuse each other with words of hate and disrespect.
that my class could vear from so much brilliance to so much banality in a matter of minutes astounded me.
i have really held bartelt to task for some fine-tuning.
he has a clean web trail. i resisted looking him up for weeks, because i resent the invasions of the facebook culture. all i found was this.
http://digitallibrary.usc.edu/search/controller/view/usctheses-m220.html
i read it twice and a half.
i would set my text to speech to read it to me so i could really learn it. it's brilliant. in a way, i still have hope. i tend to avoid truly hopeless causes. that i ask bartelt to be more respectful, is because i have faith that it is in the range of possibility. i hope he is smart enough to see now, why it is important. i am sorry his verbal excesses have made it into this blog.
there is a sad weird thing about internet speech.
i have been reading about it here http://www.splc.org/
as a purveyor of the open data ethos and un-intellectual property spirit, i am all for sharing, republication, no rights reserved, replication, copy, alter, remix, distort.
share freely and realize property is an illusion!!!!!!
maybe i should make an LACC rap?
i feel like some of ye olde professors don't know much about the internet.
i think some great entrepreneurs will come up with a YELP for schools, which is better than ratemyprofessors.com, and more comprehensive.
wouldn't that be great???
so when teachers try to get away with crazy stuff in class they really should be prepared to see it go up on to the blogosphere immediately!!!!
and same for fellow students who can't keep there hatefulness to the privacy of their minds, but for some reason, want to spew it all over us like vomit.
ASO, stop the hate!!!
hmmm.
and what is the fine line between peacefulness in speech and satygraha, truth action?
i can't stand by and see so much violence at LACC. it is liek a microcosm of all the worst in humankind, being enacted upon us.
how can i demand justice and peacefulness and move into the future?
how can i forget what i have seen???
if teachers and students continue to be so abusive to each other, i think we will need a better counseling department.
it seems strange to me that people can be so cruel to each other on campus especially in light of alll the columbines and the recent yale murder.
schools can be dangerous places!
please don't contribute to violence.
realize your harassment can induce depression, appetite loss, addictions, even suicide, murder.
don't hurt us with your words.
do not contribute to the suffering which might induce catastrophe!
and if anybody on the campus has violent tendencies, do not push them over the edge with racism, sexism, and other intolerances!
this is dangerous!
teachers!!!!
students!!!!
please!!!!!
STOP THE HATE
LACC stay positive.
the crushed budget has been really hard on us this year.
i am so sorry the summer session is canceled too!
mark ferem on LACC graffiti
noted connoisseur of graffiti chimes in regarding the beauties of razorblade art on the toiletseats at LACC.
regarding the huge display in holmes hall, i am now really honored now that it dawns on me who he is.
he is a sociologist of bathroom graffiti and has published books about it!!
he was recommended to me by dan diamond, art expert, educator, and academic advisor.
so maybe LACC graffiti can make it into his books or websites. keep your fingers crossed.
http://www.itsallinthehead.com/
he liked the stmt :"i demand better graffiti"
he writes
regarding the huge display in holmes hall, i am now really honored now that it dawns on me who he is.
he is a sociologist of bathroom graffiti and has published books about it!!
he was recommended to me by dan diamond, art expert, educator, and academic advisor.
so maybe LACC graffiti can make it into his books or websites. keep your fingers crossed.
http://www.itsallinthehead.com/
he liked the stmt :"i demand better graffiti"
he writes
"as for better graffiti does the razor blade on the toilet seat sound better or worse???", it cuts both ways...this aired sat. should be available online or podcast soon... yeah same here say hey if I see you or you recognize me ahhaha downtown artwalk this thur. maybe I've seen you there? ...the author/playwrite who wote "Who's Afraid of Virgina Wolfe", found the title in a restroom |
the federal office of civil rights etc.
can't wait to mail this off and hand deliver a few . . . so much time and money at kinkos!
maybe i should send one to the LA county bar.
maybe i should send one to the LA county bar.
i think the student press law club should get a copy too . . .
maybe even bet tzedek, the legal group who represent holocaust survivors in LA . . .
maybe even bet tzedek, the legal group who represent holocaust survivors in LA . . .
5-9-10
Dear Office of Civil Rights, Gene Little, Jamillah Moore, Cristy Passman, Lawrence Bradford, ABA standard committee on paralegals, and LACC Collegian.
RE: Los Angeles City College Harassment
Thank you for looking over my reports. I am dismayed that the incidents of harassment and hostile atmosphere towards women and minorities are so severe at LACC that i feel that i must complain to all of you.
I believe paralegal student Sheila Dharod's privacy has been breached in the circulation of ASO files to the public if they attended the LACC ASO meetings 5-4-10.
Her number and address are on the circulating "evidence" that was offerred to the public.
The word "Nazi" is used on the SCCC memo. The ASO reproduction of this memo and recirculation of this memo (as evidence against Sheila), i consider embarrassing and offensive to holocaust survivors.
Many students spoke out against the defamation campaign waged to eliminate Sheila Dharod from student government after she exposed ASO members drinking, for calling out President James Butler-Zetino's attempt to seduce a an underage woman who he fed drinks at the SCCC affair, and for calling out ASO on numerous procedural errors.
The underage woman is filing criminal charges against the current ASO president.
I was screamed at by ASO VP for finance Joseph Tolle under the election tent wed 4-28-10 at 6:30 pm, when i told him not to touch my shoulder. He immediately lied to cover for himself, as he then did the next day to Earic Peters, saying that i screamed and touched him first, both untrue.
I made an incident report with the sheriff on campus.
Professor Bartelt of LACC anthropology repeated the phrase "show your tits" twice 4-16-10, in class. i politely asked him to speak more respectfully of breasts. He said, "what? I don't know what you are talking about?" and i said "well when you use the word tits . . ." he then shouted "what? tits and ass?"
A few weeks before he made jokes about Margaret Thatcher being a man. He also proclaimed a theory about transvestites showing women how to be real women, a comment which i find offensive both to transvestites, and to women.
He wrote me a very disgusting email defining the word "tit" 4-17-10 which i found to be both insulting to my intelligence, and harassing.
Richard Lewis in the paralegal department spoke profusely of hookers and prostitution repeatedly all semester spring 2009. He also publicly harassed a woman of color, Talissa Love, humiliated her, and graded her poorly. She missed class to avoid the harassment. She told me she was also harassed by her gym teacher.
Veteran Stephen Stapleton told me that Paralegal instructor Richard Lewis screamed at him in the courtyard. Andrea Bari witnessed this. Bari dropped his class with Richard Lewis because it is intolerably inane and offensive. Andrea Bari started an Intellectual Property student club to make up for the huge deficit in the department offerings. While Richard Lewis purportedly teaches "media law" he mainly talks about TV shows and makes sexual jokes.
My friend Eric Hamilton said his english teacher was sexist so he dropped the class.
ACLU campus club founder Lawrence Vasquez told me his teacher was saying negative things about "Mexicans."
Spring 2009, Kenneth Lanzer in the paralegal department spoke of "dumb woman," "horrible woman." He said "if i told a sstudent she would make more money as a slut walking the streets at hollywood and vine, than as a paralegal, would that be an example of defamatory speech?" He often bitterly references his divorce.
Two women students have been asked out by Lanzer, and one has dropped his class because of it.
I dropped my legal writing class with him because he makes me uncomfortable.
One of my classmates in 2009 told me there is a sociology professor who talks about male masturbation repeatedly, when i asked if they had similar experiences in class.
Professor Vargas in the paralegal program brought in a film to criminal law class with the words "whore" and "chink" and "spik" and "nigger." I found this bizarre, as he is a very good teacher otherwise. I complained, and he has had no following lapse of judgement. He thanked me for my complaint.
Professor Duffy in the law department makes jokes about women being "cheesecakes" and about the wife who eats bon-bons all day and gains 100 pounds and tries to take her husband's fortune. he also could not answer the legal question of property division in same sex marriages in the state of California during the brief window that these occurred, repeating the definition that "marriage is between a man and a woman." His tone was perceptibly stern with the gay male who helped follow up on my initial question, which followed the bon-bon comment in property law. He also joked that stdents could sit in eachother's laps if they were attractive enough.
Professor Cabellero, in Administration of Justice, makes repeatedly sexist statements. I never reported this until this letter. He also seemed to unfairly target very young latina girls, and make them the subject of his internalized racism.
The large male anatomical graffiti in the women's room in Holmes Hall where most of the law classes occur, which reads "suck it bitch" and has been in the bathroom for over a year.
My reports:
1. the harassment and defamation of Sheila Dharod by the ASO as protected by Dean Peters, who told me the ASO does not assist discrimination complaints. Invasion of privacy, use of the word "Nazi" in a joking manner.
2. the physical harassment and verbal harassment of ASO VP for finance Joseph Tolle, who lied to Peters. Peters tried to tell me the physical component was not the important part of the incident report. Tolle repeatedly touched me, as i pulled away he said "I'm sorry." Then when he touched me again, and i told him not to, he screamed at me with many witnesses present. I am scared to be around people like this with obvious anger issues. I do not think he should be allowed to be near the ASO building, because i do not feel safe there and he may have another outburst. I saw him putting his hands on another ASO member/female student, whose character was being attacked for the excessive alcohol consumption which occurred on the ASO SCCC trip.
3. Cristy Passman's failure to take my claims seriously and attempts to prevent me access to the forms to make formal complaints, and her discouraging me from my right to send reports to Sacramento
4. Bathroom graffiti which is both sexist and pornographic
5. sexist and homophobic comments by law professor Tom Duffy
6. sexist epithets and shouting by Anthropology Professor Brian Bartelt
7. 2009 complaint regarding law professors Lewis, and Lanzer, the Vargas screening of an extremely violent and verbally epithetical film in criminal law, and Department Chair Tim Sweetman's protection of the abuse.
I am looking forward to meeting with President Jamillah Moore on May !4th at one p.m. She seemed truly horrified when i told her about the anxiety and grief i have experienced as a result of the poor academic quality at LACC and ubiquitous harassment.
She seemed dismayed that i have missed classes, tests, and dropped classes as a result of the abuse. I told her the anxiety caused me appetite loss as well as depression.
i fear that immediate action from a high level and a lawsuit are the only things that will help out the carnival know as LACC.
I am dismayed that department chair Tim Sweetman and Ombudsman for Discrimination and harassment Cristy Passman are so protective of abuse.
My educator friends at other schools have told me this kind of activity would lead to immediate suspensions.
I have spent hours of grief documenting this abuse, discussing it with other students, and blogging it. I feel the adverse effect to my educational experience to be an extreme violation of my guarantee of equality in education.
Eric Kim, LCC district counsel asked me to take down my blog, supposedly for intellectual property reasons.
i wish you all would do more to prevent future abuses and punish those who have abused the students of LACC.
Please feel free to call me.
I would like to spur the initiation of an Equality Coalition to address sexist, racist, and homophobic speech in the classroom and on campus.
Please protect future students and consider LACC worthy of your investigation.
Proactive measures are needed.
ABA bar certification should not proceed until quality control standards are met.
Initially, I was shocked that my teachers seemed so ignorant of modern day sexual harassment standards. I felt that they were actively trying to get fired and retired. Now that i see that this kind of abuse is widespread and protected on LACC campus, i feel very sorry that i have wasted so much of my energy at a paralegal program with so little self-respect and at a school that protects and in fact encourages verbal abuse.
Honorably,
Mary Eng
maryeng1@yahoo.com
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